going crazy

[dannie_25]

so yeah i'm back to my "never happy" mood.

have been for awhile

debating on asking my mom if i can go get on some happy pills

or if i should just wait til college and get them then

cause i don't want to get to the level of depression that i've been at in the past

and i know i'm gonna get there

what's weird is going to college is gonna make me happy cause i'm leaving everything here

but it's also gonna make me super depressed because i'm leaving everything here

i don't wanna deal with anything anymore

i don't like when my dad is home because i have to babysit him

i don't like going to visit him because it's boring as hell there

and i feel guilty if i don't see him

i lost my girlfriend

i'm afraid i'm going to lose my best friend

i can't trust anyone in my family

i'm scared of everyhing

i have no confidence anymore

everything pisses me off

everything makes me cry

nothing makes me smile