*sigh* atleast I saw some movies today...?

[danni_v]

GlOWREAA: How was your day?
SwankyTehDiao: pretty pathetic
SwankyTehDiao: today for the first time i went to the movies by myself
SwankyTehDiao: and it actually wasn't half bad
SwankyTehDiao: and all that depresses me because i have so little faith left in my friends to even bother asking them, just to hear no...
GlOWREAA: Aw. But at least it wasn't that bad
SwankyTehDiao: but like... i dunno
SwankyTehDiao: no one ever goes to the movies by themselves
SwankyTehDiao: it's always made out to be such a taboo
SwankyTehDiao: i dunno, but like everyone who asked me who i went to the movies with today, when i said i didn't go with anyone, they just laughed
GlOWREAA: -_-x
GlOWREAA: They should try it. I did once when I thought my friends went to see the first showing and it wasn't that bad
SwankyTehDiao: yeah, but the thing is, i didn't decide to do it today
SwankyTehDiao: i decided to do it all summer
GlOWREAA: :x
SwankyTehDiao: cause i'm just so sick and tired of feeling like no one cares
SwankyTehDiao: that if i can just go and enjoy myself, then it won't matter
SwankyTehDiao: but it still hurts
GlOWREAA: But why are they acting that way?
SwankyTehDiao: i don't know. maybe only i consider them friends. and they just consider me someone who they associate with?
GlOWREAA: But isn't that friends? :x
SwankyTehDiao: i dunno, i've given up on trying to understand people. as long as movies and music keep me happy, i suppose... it can be okay?