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So.. it's been a while. Lots has changed. But really it hasn't. This is my final semester at Georgia Tech which is terrifying and freeing all at once. On one hand, FUCK YEA! I FINALLY GET MY FUCKING DEGREE. I wish the degree came with burned edges and blood stains to represent the sacrifices that went into it. Was it worth it? I don't think so. If I could choose all over again, I'd go to FIU for free, get straight A's, live with my mom for free, hang out with my friends, and go to the beach everyday. Maybe apply to Tech for gradschool. On the other hand, I would have never met Midas, I would have never gotten a game into E3, and I'd probably have all my sanity and never found out how much fun being on xanax and causing a scene is.
I like to say that Tech takes up all my time, and that's why I haven't been able to do things. "Oh, I haven't had time to read, I'm busy with school", or "Oh, I haven't had time to practice dance, I'm busy with school". And yes, that's true to an extent, but to be honest if I really wanted to do it I'd find the time somehow. I can't imagine how much time I waste just dicking around on the internet (LIKE RIGHT NOW :D). I don't read because I have textbooks I'm supposed to be reading... There's one open on my desk right now. Infact, it's been open to page 3 for the past 4 days. I don't even know how I got to page 3. What happened on pages 1 and 2?
Can't be too hard on myself because I did get an internship with Hi-Rez studios (they make Global Agenda, the shooter MMO). It is seriously impossible to convince myself to go the office. I trick myself to get in the car by pretending I'm going somewhere fun, but then I don't exit where I told myself I was going. Its a big game of deceit I play with myself. When I get there, it's really not as bad as I worked it up in my head to be. I get into the work, and by the time I look up from my computer it's 6pm. I'm supposed to be driving to work right now.
Things I wish I wasn't too lazy to take up:
1. Practice dance
2. Start a blog
3. Learn to cook
4. Freelance webdesign
5. Learn JavaScript (for real this time)
6. Read as many scifi books as my professor
I like to say that Tech takes up all my time, and that's why I haven't been able to do things. "Oh, I haven't had time to read, I'm busy with school", or "Oh, I haven't had time to practice dance, I'm busy with school". And yes, that's true to an extent, but to be honest if I really wanted to do it I'd find the time somehow. I can't imagine how much time I waste just dicking around on the internet (LIKE RIGHT NOW :D). I don't read because I have textbooks I'm supposed to be reading... There's one open on my desk right now. Infact, it's been open to page 3 for the past 4 days. I don't even know how I got to page 3. What happened on pages 1 and 2?
Can't be too hard on myself because I did get an internship with Hi-Rez studios (they make Global Agenda, the shooter MMO). It is seriously impossible to convince myself to go the office. I trick myself to get in the car by pretending I'm going somewhere fun, but then I don't exit where I told myself I was going. Its a big game of deceit I play with myself. When I get there, it's really not as bad as I worked it up in my head to be. I get into the work, and by the time I look up from my computer it's 6pm. I'm supposed to be driving to work right now.
Things I wish I wasn't too lazy to take up:
1. Practice dance
2. Start a blog
3. Learn to cook
4. Freelance webdesign
5. Learn JavaScript (for real this time)
6. Read as many scifi books as my professor