Hmm, just thinking
ok, this is kinda random, but i was thinking and my mind went back to something someone said to me last week... what exactly is it about me that makes ppl think im innocent??? lol, cuz i dont get it. is it bc i went to a catholic school once upon a time? or because i have morals? because, you can have morals and not be innocent and virtueous... lol, this kinda stuff makes me laugh really, because ive tried to be the kinda of person to just not care about what anyone else, outside of my close friends and family, thinks about me. and ive tried to be spontaneous and just do things on the spurr of the moment just because i feel like it. and yet there are still some ppl that think im innocent, or atleast im supposed to be... i think theyre finding out that my innocence is slipping away. lol. at this point in time i just wanna go crazy w/o reservation, and do w/e the hell i want to!!!! i wanna rebel!! i mean i will still keep my morals, but honestly i like the playful teasing. i just want to escape my "innocent" reputation for a while and be totally unpredictable!! just to let my hair down and do anything and everything. i want to be the type of girl that makes heads turn, which honsetly i dont think THAT will ever really happen, but i would like to be that girl. and i wanna be the girl who just does whatever she wants and just not care anymore!!! but i want to do all of this in a way that gets positive attention, and is a lot of fun. i mean i am still a virgin, but does that really make me virginal? lol, because let me tell you, that in the past, and most likely more to come in the future, ive done some crazy things. i mean, ive done the pure innocent virgin deal, and its kinda boring, well not boring, but its kinda unrealistic. for me anyways. the innocent thing doesnt get very far, bc then everyone expects a certain behavior. and i want to be the person who you never know what theyre gonna do next. i wanna be the girl who just randomly does something risque, but at the same time, not be a whore. i just want to get rid of this image that ppl have of me. atleast for a little while. lol, i know that this sounds wicked random and kinda dumb, but its really what i want!! i want to rebel finally. atleast rebel to a point lol. so yeah thats all i have to say. it just makes me laugh that ppl actually still thought that about me. lol. ok then....
<3 Dani
<3 Dani