makin it short.
so my allergies have tamed down a bit.THANK GOODNESS. but its still there, so ick!
my ear is all plugged up, apparently my right ear gets easily plugged up[granted i clean my ears like kray-zee]..somehow it has this buildup..so i have to get JUST MY RIGHT EAR, flushed. and it hurts really bad. they tried when i went to the ER, but it hurt too much and because of my swimming it made it worse.
so i try to get in shapeeeee, and now i can't one_swim because of my ear and two_because of my allergies i can barely breath outta my nose. argh.
so this weekend is coachella....and i friggin wanna go, but thursday i have this appointment to get all of thes ridiculous moles off my neck and apparently i am gunna have to take pain meds for...but i'm hopin i feel better...because more than likely this is my last year in california...and i want to take advantage of as many things that i can do here. i kno that my going on 6 years of living in california seems like NOTHING to people who have lived in one state, one town, one house their whole life, but to ME, i've practically grown up in california. since i was 12!!! i've been here. since i was in 8th grade!! i've been here. thats a lot to a military brat. that really is. and now that i'ma have to leave...i am already gettin teary eyed because there's SO MUCH that i'm leavin, that i don't want to...but i really need to. i really do. more than likely i'll be back, but in the bay area..frisco for photography school. but who knows when that'll be.
so slowly but surely...i am gunna be where i want to be in life.more appreciative of myself, my life, my family, my friends...i want to be confident in myself and love myself entirely. if i could just scream till i could scream no more and cry till i felt i was drained literally. i would.
i almost did cry that much..i talked to my mom and she was sad that everything she is saying and trying to do isn't helping me...and i just cried and cried because it hurt really bad that she felt like that. for those who are really really close to me, my mom means THE WORLD to me, above anyone else.
anyways....today was good.i bought some cds...got edward scissorhands,SCORE!....got this shirt that says..shit. now i can't remember.go figure. well..its really late and i actually am tired. did A LOT of driving, but NOTHING like frisco. and tricky..i'm waitin for that entry on our blue table!
night lovelys.
♥
my ear is all plugged up, apparently my right ear gets easily plugged up[granted i clean my ears like kray-zee]..somehow it has this buildup..so i have to get JUST MY RIGHT EAR, flushed. and it hurts really bad. they tried when i went to the ER, but it hurt too much and because of my swimming it made it worse.
so i try to get in shapeeeee, and now i can't one_swim because of my ear and two_because of my allergies i can barely breath outta my nose. argh.
so this weekend is coachella....and i friggin wanna go, but thursday i have this appointment to get all of thes ridiculous moles off my neck and apparently i am gunna have to take pain meds for...but i'm hopin i feel better...because more than likely this is my last year in california...and i want to take advantage of as many things that i can do here. i kno that my going on 6 years of living in california seems like NOTHING to people who have lived in one state, one town, one house their whole life, but to ME, i've practically grown up in california. since i was 12!!! i've been here. since i was in 8th grade!! i've been here. thats a lot to a military brat. that really is. and now that i'ma have to leave...i am already gettin teary eyed because there's SO MUCH that i'm leavin, that i don't want to...but i really need to. i really do. more than likely i'll be back, but in the bay area..frisco for photography school. but who knows when that'll be.
so slowly but surely...i am gunna be where i want to be in life.more appreciative of myself, my life, my family, my friends...i want to be confident in myself and love myself entirely. if i could just scream till i could scream no more and cry till i felt i was drained literally. i would.
i almost did cry that much..i talked to my mom and she was sad that everything she is saying and trying to do isn't helping me...and i just cried and cried because it hurt really bad that she felt like that. for those who are really really close to me, my mom means THE WORLD to me, above anyone else.
anyways....today was good.i bought some cds...got edward scissorhands,SCORE!....got this shirt that says..shit. now i can't remember.go figure. well..its really late and i actually am tired. did A LOT of driving, but NOTHING like frisco. and tricky..i'm waitin for that entry on our blue table!
night lovelys.
♥