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so its been quite a while. last night was the 4th of july party. not many ppl came since all our hoes are pretty much gone, but it was still fun. speaking of hoes thats what im here to write about because some ppl say writing is cathartic and seeing as im alone basically alone in mechays houze cause shes still sleeping in her moms room im feel kinda lonely and emo.
well the bottom line is this: im scared of what happens after senior year. I cannot bear to think of losing you guys. i kno for some of u it will be pretty much inevitable, but for my bffles i...lini i am so scared that one day i will wake up and u and i wont be talking. and if we are talking and if we are talking itll be like i talk to my friends from israel which is basically nothing. i mean, ull be in ny and im probably gonna be here. and u probably arent gonna come home much. and well both have new friends the other one doesnt kno and it'll be like maddy and i were before only worse cause of the distance. god i kno ur reading this thinking a im a big loser and ull stop wftf fuck u crying about we still got a year but a year goes by so fast. I mean look, 3 years of high school have already gone! And i talk to seniors now and they all basically say thank god i wanted it to end so badly i cant stand some of those ppl and im just like NO i dont want it to end! OUr lives are so...perfect! we have more fun then anyone i kno and we kno eachother so well and i love u so much. it makes me so scared. losing u. so subliming scared.
now dana dont freak out because i didnt say all that about u love. i just have a feeling we'll both be here for some reason. so we'll have a better chance...
and then theres kirby and michael and kyle and elissa but ill still be able to track her down for a year but damnit. i cannot imagine life without u. not even that because the truth is i have done it before, but i dont WANT to. its like that thing i said u once from some movie...i dont need u in my life, i want u in it. and i do so much.
And all my best friends being outta the country or in another state isnt really helping all my fears. but regardless, i hope ur all having fun. and i cannot wait to see u...i love u more than life.
ur the best hoes a chick could want :)
wow i think i actually do feel a bit better. cool.
dani
ps. if u werent mentioned calm ur ass down because the likihood is i love u too but i just forgot ur name because a) i was up past 2 and b) we all kno my memory :)
well the bottom line is this: im scared of what happens after senior year. I cannot bear to think of losing you guys. i kno for some of u it will be pretty much inevitable, but for my bffles i...lini i am so scared that one day i will wake up and u and i wont be talking. and if we are talking and if we are talking itll be like i talk to my friends from israel which is basically nothing. i mean, ull be in ny and im probably gonna be here. and u probably arent gonna come home much. and well both have new friends the other one doesnt kno and it'll be like maddy and i were before only worse cause of the distance. god i kno ur reading this thinking a im a big loser and ull stop wftf fuck u crying about we still got a year but a year goes by so fast. I mean look, 3 years of high school have already gone! And i talk to seniors now and they all basically say thank god i wanted it to end so badly i cant stand some of those ppl and im just like NO i dont want it to end! OUr lives are so...perfect! we have more fun then anyone i kno and we kno eachother so well and i love u so much. it makes me so scared. losing u. so subliming scared.
now dana dont freak out because i didnt say all that about u love. i just have a feeling we'll both be here for some reason. so we'll have a better chance...
and then theres kirby and michael and kyle and elissa but ill still be able to track her down for a year but damnit. i cannot imagine life without u. not even that because the truth is i have done it before, but i dont WANT to. its like that thing i said u once from some movie...i dont need u in my life, i want u in it. and i do so much.
And all my best friends being outta the country or in another state isnt really helping all my fears. but regardless, i hope ur all having fun. and i cannot wait to see u...i love u more than life.
ur the best hoes a chick could want :)
wow i think i actually do feel a bit better. cool.
dani
ps. if u werent mentioned calm ur ass down because the likihood is i love u too but i just forgot ur name because a) i was up past 2 and b) we all kno my memory :)