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I think we should all get together either Saturday night or sunday morning. And i mean everybody. For some sort of group emotional orgy of frustration that is sencond semester senior year. I started this week so well. And how i ended this terribly I dont even know.
And the worst part is, it isnt terrible. Terrible is a car crash or a severed limb.
This is the sort of terrible where you're forever trapped in a limbo of things you have to do,but put off, and things you know are coming, but are so disgusted you will not accept their inevitabilty.
I wish I wasnt so numb right now. But thats all I can feel. I have to much I could do to perfect my life. (the paradoxal perfection that can never be reached) and Im to lazy and apathetic to put forth any effort.
When will somthing happen to me? I need a stinging change. I need somthing to bite me in the ass and make me excited for the morning, because frankly, the 1st hour challenge of math analysis, the 2nd hour duldrum of EnviSci and the WTF of APLIT just arnt enough.
Im sick of my life, my definition of existence, being that of school and extracuricular activities. These triffles (thanks crime and punishment) are just so boring.
Maybe I'll get drafted or somthing d . Or perhaps my plane will crash on a mysterious island that is full of secrets and home to giant polar bears and mythical smoke monsters that haunt the graves of Nigerian drug smugglers disguised as clergy men.
Maybe ill get a haircut
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Daniel
And the worst part is, it isnt terrible. Terrible is a car crash or a severed limb.
This is the sort of terrible where you're forever trapped in a limbo of things you have to do,but put off, and things you know are coming, but are so disgusted you will not accept their inevitabilty.
I wish I wasnt so numb right now. But thats all I can feel. I have to much I could do to perfect my life. (the paradoxal perfection that can never be reached) and Im to lazy and apathetic to put forth any effort.
When will somthing happen to me? I need a stinging change. I need somthing to bite me in the ass and make me excited for the morning, because frankly, the 1st hour challenge of math analysis, the 2nd hour duldrum of EnviSci and the WTF of APLIT just arnt enough.
Im sick of my life, my definition of existence, being that of school and extracuricular activities. These triffles (thanks crime and punishment) are just so boring.
Maybe I'll get drafted or somthing d . Or perhaps my plane will crash on a mysterious island that is full of secrets and home to giant polar bears and mythical smoke monsters that haunt the graves of Nigerian drug smugglers disguised as clergy men.
Maybe ill get a haircut
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Daniel