hoooooooooaaaaaaahhhhh

[danimal5100]

been a while since i posted. just about done with first semester...pretty freaking sweet, eh? Eh, just to catch ya'l up who don't talk to me ever, life's been pretty good this semester (a little shaky at first, and then me/kristen broke up, which blew, but in the long run i think it was a good idea (time constraints for me were too much w/ crew and comp sci stuff, and we didn't really want to be committed to a relationship that didn't have much communication, such is life...). Otherwise, life has been good. Gained a few new friends (Michelle (from crew), Kristen (aka little Sexy), and just a bunch of other crew peeps which is pretty freaking sweet). its kind of givin me the whole freshman experience thing(goin to xavier basketball games, avoiding the caf as much as possible) that I just really didn't have last year (ha, time constraints (aka Trina, lol, no offense to her or anything)) so the last 2 weeks or so have basically been devoted to social life (i.e. more of hangin out w/ people rather than programming) and believe it or not, this has actually not affected my grades AT ALL! yep, just not thinkin about school work makes me more PRODUCTIVE. a good member of SOCIETY. i like using CAPS LOCK. hmmm, crap goin on w/ crew that's pretty interesting, had a few discussions w/ people about the way *some* members of the team treat me and how its unfair. Yea, kinda realized I'm more/less a push-over to some people, which kinda sux. so new goal in life: be less of a push over, lol. I guess I'd just gotten into the routine of trying to give people what they want instead of causing conflict or arguments. but now i realize that the only way to progess so everyone can be happy is to argue. yep, goes back to that y = .5 graph....if ya don't know what i'm talkin about, IM me, i'll tell ya all about it. ah, fuck it, i'll just explain it here. Let's imagine a 2 dimensional graph (i.e. a graph with an x-axis and a y-axis). Let's say the x-axis represents the total population. let's say the y-axis represents people's happiness. now, simply put, we want everyone's happiness to be equal (so if we have a y = .5 graph, everyone's equally happy). HOWEVER, if we have something like a sin(x) graph...(that is, the graph fluctuates from -1 to 1 every cycle) then we have unhappy people. What that would represent is 1/2 the people being extremely happy and 1/2 the population being depressed. Anyway, yea, i know, i'm a dork. I represent happiness and unhappiness with graphs......woo hoo for bein a comp sci major, lol. Anyway, I've basically been teaching myself that as long as everyone else is happy, then it doesn't matter if i'm unhappy (the sin(x) graph) but hopefully now i'm gonna make it look more like a y = .5 graph. oh man, I should just stop talking.....lol. anyway, new goals, new friends....and a ton more to learn from life. XU CREW! (givin a shout-out)

sweet, now i've posted.