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I haven't really written in a while for the same reasons. It's probably really boring to read about my life every single day anyway.. somewhat of a lot has happened, but it doesn't really matter at this point. Sorry if this ends up being boring & stupid but I just need to vent. These past 24 hrs have really sucked. I managed to do bad on my geo. test again... still try and help Lori in her situation and just get taken advantage of AGAIN. And Roland has led me on for nothing. I don't even know why I continue to talk to Lori. I put up with so much of her problems and she is never there to hear about ONE of mine. Then the whole situation with Roland... everything was going smoothly until I had to have "the talk" with him. Then I find out that he still thinks & cares about his ex and wants to get back with her, sometime. What is he doing with me then?! We were acting as if we were a couple for the past few days, and then he tells me he might get back with his ex and doesn't want to hurt me.... well, why don't you think about that before you start things with me? I guess I should be glad we didn't start dating and then months later he leaves for his ex again, but if he knew he wanted to still get back with her, why even try starting a new one?! I don't even know what to do anymore. He says he wants to continue and take things slow with me, but does it even sound worth it for me anymore? I'm going to constantly be worried about his ex and him. I don't know what I should do/think. HELP!