times are a changin
well first things first, my uncle kris came home to our house today ,just kind out of nowhere, he lives in Montana for fucks sake! am i the only person that finds this completely odd? i suppose so because its my moms youngest brother and she was to say the least happy. today was erins 20th b-day thats also odd , shes not in her "teens" anymore, which also means that i will soon in only 4 months 20 too...time honestly does fly by and i dont know what to do besides just flow with things. sean was suppose to call me tonight but he didn't i guess he will call me when he can. i dont feel anything right now , its all just a blur. i leave for college in less than 2 weeks, i have a slim ammount of good friends which i do not complain about because quality not quanity , still yet i dont feel special or needed at all right now.its such a lonely feeling. the only thing i feel needed for is advice to people that i barely talk to but always turn to me for help,which is the only thing i have , giving good advice. i am going to get my doctrin in psych. but still i always need that something more to feel like i belong, and right now i feel like im the square peg trying to fit into the round hole. although it can always be worse.im not dying in africa right now, im sitting on my bed with my laptop and cat...seriously i need to just get over it.