motherfucker = motherfucker

[danielmaydie]

i'm not "living" with my parents, but i've been staying with them for what feels like a couple months now. semantics, i know. meanwhile i keep writing and mailing off these checks for a studio elsewhere. i'm...hiding from my cramped four walls and door, throwing money at it, avoiding, hoping it will go away. it is, and has been a very in-between time. but i like the old streets, the stomping grounds. thee change of scenery.

um....
unemployment
turned 29
trip to monterey
speeding ticket
paranoia
book read
trip to joshua tree
intermittently working, sweating and bleeding on car

apathy, disconnection, and a sort of slow, plodding sense of resignation bred from exhaustion.

sleeping on couches, floors and futons.
living out of luggage.