I know it's been a long time.
Things have been okay, but not the best ever. I mean, things start to look up and then go down hill all over again. I love my friends, I truly do. But at times they just don't understand something. Not only has it been ups and downs with them it's been that way with guys.
I'm not the type of girl to go and make friends with a bunch of girls. That just isn't me. I'm not interested in having a bunch of girlfriends. They can be so difficult and bitchy. The ones I have in my life right now are enough. So, now there are a few more new ones and they just piss me off. I don't find them interesting and they are the rudest girls I've ever met. I don't understand why my friends like them.
I mean, I love my friends to death, but they hang out with these girls all the time. I absolutely hate it. I makes me feel like second best. I mean, they would much rather do something with them than me. Yeah, I feel like shit then.
And then these lowlife girls decide to come to our parties and be all up on the guys we like. Yeah, real good choice of friends, but whatever. And I'm just supposed to sit there and be cool with it while this slut is pushing herself on the dude I like and I thought he liked me. Oh, that's right. I'm sorry for NOT being easy.
Okay, then there's the family/friend. It's cool. Then a little bit of drinking happens and they end up the worlds biggest bitch ever who is supposed to be right. Oh, my bad. I forgot, I was drunk so that makes her right all the time. Wow. Oh, and then today I find out I'm not good enough for her. Well then fuck you too, I didn't want you to move with me next summer. I'll just give up my life so you can be a cry baby bitch because your family doesn't want you so you're going to run away from your problems.
I know, I sound like a bitch myself. But I'm tired of bending myself for them. I'm tired of being just that leaning post when they're worlds go upside down. Hey, I still have my bad days and I don't go and get all butt hurt over it. Oh, that's right...if I tried it wouldn't matter because they're problems are more fucked up than mine.
So, too all the ones that say they love me....FUCK OFF.
I'm not the type of girl to go and make friends with a bunch of girls. That just isn't me. I'm not interested in having a bunch of girlfriends. They can be so difficult and bitchy. The ones I have in my life right now are enough. So, now there are a few more new ones and they just piss me off. I don't find them interesting and they are the rudest girls I've ever met. I don't understand why my friends like them.
I mean, I love my friends to death, but they hang out with these girls all the time. I absolutely hate it. I makes me feel like second best. I mean, they would much rather do something with them than me. Yeah, I feel like shit then.
And then these lowlife girls decide to come to our parties and be all up on the guys we like. Yeah, real good choice of friends, but whatever. And I'm just supposed to sit there and be cool with it while this slut is pushing herself on the dude I like and I thought he liked me. Oh, that's right. I'm sorry for NOT being easy.
Okay, then there's the family/friend. It's cool. Then a little bit of drinking happens and they end up the worlds biggest bitch ever who is supposed to be right. Oh, my bad. I forgot, I was drunk so that makes her right all the time. Wow. Oh, and then today I find out I'm not good enough for her. Well then fuck you too, I didn't want you to move with me next summer. I'll just give up my life so you can be a cry baby bitch because your family doesn't want you so you're going to run away from your problems.
I know, I sound like a bitch myself. But I'm tired of bending myself for them. I'm tired of being just that leaning post when they're worlds go upside down. Hey, I still have my bad days and I don't go and get all butt hurt over it. Oh, that's right...if I tried it wouldn't matter because they're problems are more fucked up than mine.
So, too all the ones that say they love me....FUCK OFF.