Okayyy.
So maybe I should grow some balls && just ask him myself, but I don't want to. I really don't feel like being rejected. Esp, by someone that I actually like && like being around. I'm just trying to protect myself. && I don't know. I feel like if I complain on myspace it isn't going to do any good. I mean, I've made a post about how I wish he would just ask me, but I don't think it will ever happen. I'm just being stupid over a stupid boy. Maybe it's time for me to move to old guys. He is only 19 && I don't think he really knows what he wants. Ugh.
Today is so sucky. It's my day off && I haven't done a damn thing. Ohhh, && I'm freezing. I so want out of Alaska.
&& yeah, I really don't want to go to work tomorrow, but I so need the money && I don't want to fuck that up. Plussss, I want to get a cell soon so then who knows maybe things will work themselves out with Ledo. There I go again...just thinking about him. I don't want to be over him yet && that's going to be a problem for me if nothing does happen. I don't know why I get this way when I actually like someone.
If you're reading this...just please come shoot me. haha Okayyy j/k don't do that. I just, ugh, I hate this whole situation right now. Why, do I over complicate everything??? Geez, I think it's because I'm a gemini && we just like to over complicate things. Maybe I just want attention from other people.
Oh && if you know anything about starting up a site that's kind of like a cam site...please let me know. I want to start up one myself && make money that way. I figure that since I take pics && vids like that I should set something up like that && make some cash. So pleaseeee tell me if you know anythingggg I will love you forever!! <333 haha
So yeah, I'm going to see if maybe I can find that one site I did forever ago because that is by far the best one I have found, but I'm not having any luck on finding it again. Which is pretty sucky. But omg, yeah, I want to make some easy cash so I have some moneyyyy. Mmmkay yeah, peace out.
Today is so sucky. It's my day off && I haven't done a damn thing. Ohhh, && I'm freezing. I so want out of Alaska.
&& yeah, I really don't want to go to work tomorrow, but I so need the money && I don't want to fuck that up. Plussss, I want to get a cell soon so then who knows maybe things will work themselves out with Ledo. There I go again...just thinking about him. I don't want to be over him yet && that's going to be a problem for me if nothing does happen. I don't know why I get this way when I actually like someone.
If you're reading this...just please come shoot me. haha Okayyy j/k don't do that. I just, ugh, I hate this whole situation right now. Why, do I over complicate everything??? Geez, I think it's because I'm a gemini && we just like to over complicate things. Maybe I just want attention from other people.
Oh && if you know anything about starting up a site that's kind of like a cam site...please let me know. I want to start up one myself && make money that way. I figure that since I take pics && vids like that I should set something up like that && make some cash. So pleaseeee tell me if you know anythingggg I will love you forever!! <333 haha
So yeah, I'm going to see if maybe I can find that one site I did forever ago because that is by far the best one I have found, but I'm not having any luck on finding it again. Which is pretty sucky. But omg, yeah, I want to make some easy cash so I have some moneyyyy. Mmmkay yeah, peace out.