It's hard to deal when your other half goes away
I'm like a lost puppy with nowhere to go. I don't know what to do with myself. She's my other half and it's been almost three weeks since we've actually done something together. I'm not even on the back burner. It's like she left me in a dark closet and forgot that she put me there.
Sure, after I posted a blog on myspace she gets a hint. When she asked if it was about her I wanted to scream yes, but instead I didn't say a thing. I don't want her to be upset with me. Why, because maybe I'm being selfish.
I mean, shouldn't I be happy that she has found someone? Yeah, sure they're great together. But why did she have to give up me to be with him? I mean, doesn't she miss me? I know I miss her. I miss her like crazy. How can you just give up your best friend for someone you've known for three weeks?
Everytime I get a best friend it ends in tears. It ends in me being alone again.
I think she may give up hockey. The one thing we would always do together. The one thing that could keep us friends...that can keep us tight. But then again, it feels like I've lost her completely. And it's like no one even notices that I'm all alone.
I'm tired of every day going by. I'm tired of it just being me. I like my time to myself, but after awhile I get lonely. My heart can't take this anymore. I'm not holding back the tears anymore. She doesn't even know that I'm crying because she is hurting me so badly.
Am I being selfish?
Sure, after I posted a blog on myspace she gets a hint. When she asked if it was about her I wanted to scream yes, but instead I didn't say a thing. I don't want her to be upset with me. Why, because maybe I'm being selfish.
I mean, shouldn't I be happy that she has found someone? Yeah, sure they're great together. But why did she have to give up me to be with him? I mean, doesn't she miss me? I know I miss her. I miss her like crazy. How can you just give up your best friend for someone you've known for three weeks?
Everytime I get a best friend it ends in tears. It ends in me being alone again.
I think she may give up hockey. The one thing we would always do together. The one thing that could keep us friends...that can keep us tight. But then again, it feels like I've lost her completely. And it's like no one even notices that I'm all alone.
I'm tired of every day going by. I'm tired of it just being me. I like my time to myself, but after awhile I get lonely. My heart can't take this anymore. I'm not holding back the tears anymore. She doesn't even know that I'm crying because she is hurting me so badly.
Am I being selfish?