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Today is Saturday.
My mom is out of town & I kind of miss her. She is in Arkansas right now staying with her friend Taria (Amanda Lewis's mom) trying to find us a house down there. She is going to our house to get some of our stuff, too & she should be home within the week. I don't know if I want to leave sometimes. A lot of the time I do... Mostly when I am sitting at home with nothing to do (which is pretty much everyday.) When I'm in school with my new kind of friends I dont want to leave. I think I mostly do want to leave though. I miss having a best girl friend.... That's all I really want, but I know that wont happen because it just won't. I mean... Everyone already has their best friends slash groups & I'm suprised I actually found a group. It's a group of freshman, but I can't complain. They are pretty kick ass though. I realized that I most definitely won't find a best girlfriend to have, so I tried to get a boyfriend... & well, the first guy I liked ended up asking me out, but there was just something about him that I didnt like. It's probaby the fact that after everything I say he either says "exactly" or "what?." & I started talking to this guy who I thought was cute in my study hall, but one day we'll talk & the next day we'll not look at each other. It's annoying, kind of because I guess I do like him sometimes. I think he still has a thing for his ex girlfriend though or just is not interested in me. Sometimes he acts like he is & sometimes not. Iddddddddddddddddddk. I'm weird, it's complicated. Boys are so weird. I guess I would try to ask him if he did or something, but if he said no... I just. I kind of HATE the feeling rejection. I miss Troy sometimes, but when I think about it.. I don't know how we stayed together so long. A few days before the hurricane nonsence we had this talk about how maybe we just clung to each other after David died & ughhh... I dont know how to explain it. I think that's what we did. & I also think it was kind of about the sex. IT really upsets me to think about that though, so I'll stop. Right now Melissa & Samantha are pretty much my best friends. I talk to them the most. I miss everything so much. Everyone here is so... I don't know the word, but I know if someone who moved from about 8597987 miles away came to my school & had no friends I'd like be their best friend. Maybe, I'm just too nice or these people really are the biggest assholes. Margarets mom said something like Kids up north are really mean. I guess it could be true because people in Lousiana are pretty nice & people in arkansas were really nice too. Yeah, I can't wait to get back dowwwwwwwwn south. I am probably going to stay with my mom in Arkansas because if I live with my grandmaw I am going to have to go to Slidell high & I don't want that for reasons Im not going to talk about on here. I'd want to go to school with my melface. + a truck if I stay with my mom. When I go to Arkansas I will have Amanda Lewis & I will be the happyest person ever. K?
& I thnik that's all I have to say.
Laaaaaaaaater.
How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.
How Do You Live Your Life?
My mom is out of town & I kind of miss her. She is in Arkansas right now staying with her friend Taria (Amanda Lewis's mom) trying to find us a house down there. She is going to our house to get some of our stuff, too & she should be home within the week. I don't know if I want to leave sometimes. A lot of the time I do... Mostly when I am sitting at home with nothing to do (which is pretty much everyday.) When I'm in school with my new kind of friends I dont want to leave. I think I mostly do want to leave though. I miss having a best girl friend.... That's all I really want, but I know that wont happen because it just won't. I mean... Everyone already has their best friends slash groups & I'm suprised I actually found a group. It's a group of freshman, but I can't complain. They are pretty kick ass though. I realized that I most definitely won't find a best girlfriend to have, so I tried to get a boyfriend... & well, the first guy I liked ended up asking me out, but there was just something about him that I didnt like. It's probaby the fact that after everything I say he either says "exactly" or "what?." & I started talking to this guy who I thought was cute in my study hall, but one day we'll talk & the next day we'll not look at each other. It's annoying, kind of because I guess I do like him sometimes. I think he still has a thing for his ex girlfriend though or just is not interested in me. Sometimes he acts like he is & sometimes not. Iddddddddddddddddddk. I'm weird, it's complicated. Boys are so weird. I guess I would try to ask him if he did or something, but if he said no... I just. I kind of HATE the feeling rejection. I miss Troy sometimes, but when I think about it.. I don't know how we stayed together so long. A few days before the hurricane nonsence we had this talk about how maybe we just clung to each other after David died & ughhh... I dont know how to explain it. I think that's what we did. & I also think it was kind of about the sex. IT really upsets me to think about that though, so I'll stop. Right now Melissa & Samantha are pretty much my best friends. I talk to them the most. I miss everything so much. Everyone here is so... I don't know the word, but I know if someone who moved from about 8597987 miles away came to my school & had no friends I'd like be their best friend. Maybe, I'm just too nice or these people really are the biggest assholes. Margarets mom said something like Kids up north are really mean. I guess it could be true because people in Lousiana are pretty nice & people in arkansas were really nice too. Yeah, I can't wait to get back dowwwwwwwwn south. I am probably going to stay with my mom in Arkansas because if I live with my grandmaw I am going to have to go to Slidell high & I don't want that for reasons Im not going to talk about on here. I'd want to go to school with my melface. + a truck if I stay with my mom. When I go to Arkansas I will have Amanda Lewis & I will be the happyest person ever. K?
& I thnik that's all I have to say.
Laaaaaaaaater.
How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.
How Do You Live Your Life?