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seriously i have so much coming up. i don't know if i'm going to be able to get through it. I have my AP English test May 1st.. the SAT May 6th.. several papers and projects due all in May, regular tests out the fuckin wazoo and i have so much reading to do for english it's insane. I really feel dumb. I honestly feel challenged with everything i do in life. This past weekend was so fun because i didn't do anything school related but then i realized all of the school related stuff i have to do that i haven't been doing and i'm like what the fuck i am totally losing touch with everything. how do other people do it? have fun and keep outstanding grades? i have to work so hard at everything and it's still mediocre..not even. I'm freaking out about college because i have to look at scholarships for one of my classes and i don't do any kind of community service and i'm not a leader at my school... i don't do tons of sports and i'm obviously not in the top percentile of my class.. i don't know how i'm going to make it. I can't procrastinate anymore... really... i have never been so concerned with my grades and school in my whole entire life. i hate enloe. i want it to be over.