To know...
To know that we come from two different worlds,
To know that we have nothing in common,
To know that he understands me better than anyone else,
To know that he understands my weirdness, whereas most people think my quirks are endearing, he understands that the weirdness is what keeps me seeing in color. He understands that sometimes the weirdness is all that makes me feel alive,
To know that he shares his secrets with me, secrets he has never told anyone,
To know that he trusts me, even though I have never given him a reason to,
To know that if I was ever to judge him negatively, to think down on him in anyway, that he would not react in a usual manner, to be sad and then get over, but to know that I would break him, although he would never let it show,
To know that he wants to impress me, wants to show me how well he has been doing with a humble modesty that is so sincere that it breaks one's heart,
To know that he has never judged me,
To know that if I am the quintessential good girl, then he is the quintessential bad boy,
To know that he thinks I am different from the rest,
To know that to ask him to change his habits would be like asking me to change my standards,
To know that I have always chosen logic and reason over all other senses,
To know all this is to know that I have a very tough decision to make.
To know that we have nothing in common,
To know that he understands me better than anyone else,
To know that he understands my weirdness, whereas most people think my quirks are endearing, he understands that the weirdness is what keeps me seeing in color. He understands that sometimes the weirdness is all that makes me feel alive,
To know that he shares his secrets with me, secrets he has never told anyone,
To know that he trusts me, even though I have never given him a reason to,
To know that if I was ever to judge him negatively, to think down on him in anyway, that he would not react in a usual manner, to be sad and then get over, but to know that I would break him, although he would never let it show,
To know that he wants to impress me, wants to show me how well he has been doing with a humble modesty that is so sincere that it breaks one's heart,
To know that he has never judged me,
To know that if I am the quintessential good girl, then he is the quintessential bad boy,
To know that he thinks I am different from the rest,
To know that to ask him to change his habits would be like asking me to change my standards,
To know that I have always chosen logic and reason over all other senses,
To know all this is to know that I have a very tough decision to make.