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The past couple days have been really tough. Its really hard training your body to stay awake only to sleep 3 - 6 hours randomly through out the day. Also the lack of social contact, meaning friend contacts, have been really killing me. The only thing i really get to say to them is hi and bye. i probably seam really anti social at win-co due to exhaustion and/or lack of interest. i maybe near the edge of quiting, but untill then i will continue to be nonexistent.
I think my coworkers at the bank think im on drugs. im always really tired and they dont know about my second job, so i figure they suspect something. My brother says i look like a ghost, which may just be what i am in a way.
you know how i always feel like dancing and listening to music? well i dont feel like that anymore, i feel like having complete silence. Its like part of me died somewhere in the past couple days, a really good part of me... i became mean, so says vanessa. i would have to agree... but really im trying hard and im sorry for being an ass, i really am. i cant feel anything but bad if someone says something like that to me. it wasnt my intention to be this way, really. I'll try harder
todays my one day off and im hoping someone could join me and see a movie. last time didnt work out so great, i ended up seeing a movie alone. hopefuly someone will be free and willing to join me tonight.
I think my coworkers at the bank think im on drugs. im always really tired and they dont know about my second job, so i figure they suspect something. My brother says i look like a ghost, which may just be what i am in a way.
you know how i always feel like dancing and listening to music? well i dont feel like that anymore, i feel like having complete silence. Its like part of me died somewhere in the past couple days, a really good part of me... i became mean, so says vanessa. i would have to agree... but really im trying hard and im sorry for being an ass, i really am. i cant feel anything but bad if someone says something like that to me. it wasnt my intention to be this way, really. I'll try harder
todays my one day off and im hoping someone could join me and see a movie. last time didnt work out so great, i ended up seeing a movie alone. hopefuly someone will be free and willing to join me tonight.