OK TODAY JUST NEEDS TO END!
I seriously don’t think I can take much more......
My bank account is pretty close to being depleted of funds because filling up my very empty house is costing me a fortune. The rain has kept the contractors from finishing my house on time and they are killing themselves to get it ready for tomorrow, which by the way is when we are supposed to move in. I am having issues at home that totally consume me with anger but once again there is really nothing I can do about it. The wife of a very close client of ours call my boss to let him know that the client died this past Saturday due to heart troubles.....WHAT THE FUCK MAN!!!!! He just came to see me last week about some files...he looked perfectly fine last week!
AND LAST BUT CERTAINLY NOT LEAST: SBA FUCK UP MY LOAN AGAIN! I finally thought I was done with SBA. I even started to feel a sense of accomplishment regarding all that mess but NOPE! SILLY, STUPID ME. They approved me alright! They approved me for the wrong type of loan......so not only does the loan have to be restructured, I also have to go through the approval process all over again for the correct type of loan.......How long is that going to take..? you may wonder! TOO LONG! I am moving in the house tomorrow.......I should be closing on the house no later then next week. WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONG TO DO NOW SBA?
I am feeling very unstable and violent right now. I have never been so out of control in all my life. I have no stability, no answers, nothing to count on, depend upon, no one can really help me but me. For fucks sake it has been 16 months since the storm! When is this all going to end for me?
I really just want to lay on my sofa, in my house, with my dog and cry.