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I have been crying since umm 10:00 this morning. I cant stop. I miss Rickie so much. I am so fucking lost without him. I cant fucking take it anymore. I love him more then anything and hes gone. Hes fucking gone. Somebody needs to knock some fucking sense into him and tell him he needs to ask me back out because I am the best fucking thing he will ever have. Yeah we fought but it was just because we were together too much. I cant fucking keep going like this. I cant get him out of my head. Hes all I fucking think about night and day. I want him back. I was so fucking happy with him and now Im not happy at all. Im sad and depressed and upset and hurt and pissed and heartbroken. All I want is my Rickie back. Thats all I want. And I promise him things will be better. This fucking hurts so much. I dont want to hurt anymore. I want Rickie to hold me and tell me it will all be ok and I want to cry in his arms. Thats what I fucking want. Why cant that happen? Am I being punished for something I did? Thats what it fucking feels like.