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So this weekend was a total bust.
I was gonna just tell Ryan not to come because I've been so exhausted for the past 2 weeks and I just wanted to chill by myself or go see john...and I was supposed to get shit done around here like go look at cars and talk to my mom and shit...
But I didn't wanna be an ass and I felt bad so I said he could come.
But I probably should have just said no...especially because I had school.
1. If I had gone to school it would have sucked for him.
2. I didn't go to school and that made shit way drama and it still sucked.
So he had a horrible time...but I dont know what exactly he thought we were going to do that would be fun?
I feel bad he dindt have fun. He just told me one day he was going to come down here and I said okay...there were no plans to do anything or anything like that...
And there was really nothing I could do about the lame shit that happened...
Everything bad this weekend could have been avoided if I had just told him not to come...I knew it was a bad idea. =/
I did end up going to Briens to hang out...I'm glad I got to at least see everyone for a little bit.
But I didnt stay long because it looked like it was gonna rain and I didnt want my mom to be pissed and I was just feeling kinda depressed.
When I got home my mom was home and she gave me mean looks when I came in the door and shit...but I just acted liek fine and talked to her and she got over it.
I know shes still mad probably and we'll have to "have a talk"...but oh well.
I'm getting too caught up in my friends again. I want to spend all my free time having fun and seeing my friends...like I think if I dont they'll suddenly be gone and I'll regret not spending more time with them...and seeing my friends in more important to me than resting or responsibility...
friends are my priority so my priorities are straight...
but I guess I gotta conform...lmao.
And fucking john...haha. He drives me crazy...in a good way. He's the cutest fucking thing...
He says so much cute shit...and I beleive him when he says it...and I love that I can beleive him and I'm not always questioning his intentions. I feel so comfortable around him...like I dont have to try to be cool or be someone I'm not just so he'll like me. And it goes the other way too. I always feel like I want the perfect boy and I think of what could be better or cooler about whoever I'm dating and I end up breaking up with them because I want someone better. But theres nothing I dont like about him and theres nothing I would want to change about him. He doesnt wear girl pants or have scene hair or go to shows and clubs or any of the stupid superficial shit I usually find important...and thats totally fine with me. I like him how he is.
ahhhahaha.
ew I'm all twitterpaited. I'll shut up now. =P
I was gonna just tell Ryan not to come because I've been so exhausted for the past 2 weeks and I just wanted to chill by myself or go see john...and I was supposed to get shit done around here like go look at cars and talk to my mom and shit...
But I didn't wanna be an ass and I felt bad so I said he could come.
But I probably should have just said no...especially because I had school.
1. If I had gone to school it would have sucked for him.
2. I didn't go to school and that made shit way drama and it still sucked.
So he had a horrible time...but I dont know what exactly he thought we were going to do that would be fun?
I feel bad he dindt have fun. He just told me one day he was going to come down here and I said okay...there were no plans to do anything or anything like that...
And there was really nothing I could do about the lame shit that happened...
Everything bad this weekend could have been avoided if I had just told him not to come...I knew it was a bad idea. =/
I did end up going to Briens to hang out...I'm glad I got to at least see everyone for a little bit.
But I didnt stay long because it looked like it was gonna rain and I didnt want my mom to be pissed and I was just feeling kinda depressed.
When I got home my mom was home and she gave me mean looks when I came in the door and shit...but I just acted liek fine and talked to her and she got over it.
I know shes still mad probably and we'll have to "have a talk"...but oh well.
I'm getting too caught up in my friends again. I want to spend all my free time having fun and seeing my friends...like I think if I dont they'll suddenly be gone and I'll regret not spending more time with them...and seeing my friends in more important to me than resting or responsibility...
friends are my priority so my priorities are straight...
but I guess I gotta conform...lmao.
And fucking john...haha. He drives me crazy...in a good way. He's the cutest fucking thing...
He says so much cute shit...and I beleive him when he says it...and I love that I can beleive him and I'm not always questioning his intentions. I feel so comfortable around him...like I dont have to try to be cool or be someone I'm not just so he'll like me. And it goes the other way too. I always feel like I want the perfect boy and I think of what could be better or cooler about whoever I'm dating and I end up breaking up with them because I want someone better. But theres nothing I dont like about him and theres nothing I would want to change about him. He doesnt wear girl pants or have scene hair or go to shows and clubs or any of the stupid superficial shit I usually find important...and thats totally fine with me. I like him how he is.
ahhhahaha.
ew I'm all twitterpaited. I'll shut up now. =P