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Supposed to maybe go hang out with John and maybe Hiram and some of their friends I guess on saturday. John cant go to fresh cuz of work and stuff and he's gonna try to get hiram to not go...then maybe party thing at johns house?
That would be cool...more so just to meet and hang out with new people.
Maybe I'll actually have fun and meet some people I like?
But if I go I'll more than likely end up going by myself so I might just be really shy and stuff.
We'll see.
It sorta bothers me that everything is kind of ending up the same...again.
Going to raves again.
Doing drugs again.
Hanging out with the same people again.
For what ever reason I can't fucking escape the rave scene. I honestly think the only way out is to completely drop all the friends I have now...because ALL of them go to raves quite often. And if I dont go...I spend a lot of time alone. Nobody ever wants to go to shows or clubs with me. I never go anywhere that I could meet new people who arent ravers. Even if its a house party or whatever it's always the same people, same scene. And even at shows or clubs...I'm shy, and people all have their little groups and it's just not very inviting. Maybe I've been too sheltered in the rave scene. I don't know how to make friends without the influence of ecstacy making everyone all nice and friendly. lmao. How sad.
I donno. Nothing has fucking changed.
I wanna get in my car and drive somewhere far and just stop in some town and start over.
That would be cool...more so just to meet and hang out with new people.
Maybe I'll actually have fun and meet some people I like?
But if I go I'll more than likely end up going by myself so I might just be really shy and stuff.
We'll see.
It sorta bothers me that everything is kind of ending up the same...again.
Going to raves again.
Doing drugs again.
Hanging out with the same people again.
For what ever reason I can't fucking escape the rave scene. I honestly think the only way out is to completely drop all the friends I have now...because ALL of them go to raves quite often. And if I dont go...I spend a lot of time alone. Nobody ever wants to go to shows or clubs with me. I never go anywhere that I could meet new people who arent ravers. Even if its a house party or whatever it's always the same people, same scene. And even at shows or clubs...I'm shy, and people all have their little groups and it's just not very inviting. Maybe I've been too sheltered in the rave scene. I don't know how to make friends without the influence of ecstacy making everyone all nice and friendly. lmao. How sad.
I donno. Nothing has fucking changed.
I wanna get in my car and drive somewhere far and just stop in some town and start over.