This is the Song that Never Ends
You know that show that used to be on when we were kids, "Lamb Chop's Sing Along"? You remember that song, "This is the Song that Never Ends"? That God-awful song that just repeated itself over and over again, sung by kids on the back of the big yellow school bus and when kids just wanted to be insanely annoying...at first it would be fine..kinda funny..maybe you'd even join in. Then it got slightly annoying and you got sick of hearing it. Then you started to feel yourself go crazy and think that if you heard it one more time you would scream. It had a few lyrics and when those ended those same lyrics just started back up again. It was a circle. Always coming back to the same point, never ending until someone breaks it...or in the song case, you just get bored and stop singing it.
I feel like I'm stuck in that song....or maybe my own song, "this is the fucked up situation that never ends." Some annoying kid keeps singing it to me and I just can't get away from it. My ears are about to bleed. I don't want to hear it anymore. Everyone around me is sick of hearing it too..no one wants to hear it...no one wants to hear me complain about it. Sometimes the song stops for a little..sometimes I'm able to run away and hide where the singer cannot find me....but he always ends up finding me and it always just resumes...picks up right where it left off.
This may be a stupid analogy. Many of you are completely lost as to right now. But I am frusterated and annoyed and angry and upset. I want this song to end soooo bad! I try to stop it, but I don't know how. I don't know if I'll ever get away from it. I feel like I'm too weak to even be able to. It was good for awhile...but I feel it slowly coming back and I'm scared of what it will do to me.
I am not excited for summer anymore. I would rather stay at school all year round. I love you guys, I'm excited for the times we'll have, but to me summer will be endless work, an endless loathsome routine of obligation....plus this...this song that wont leave me alone and grows so much louder everytime I'm back home. I need to get away.
Ahhhhh just make it stop!
I feel like I'm stuck in that song....or maybe my own song, "this is the fucked up situation that never ends." Some annoying kid keeps singing it to me and I just can't get away from it. My ears are about to bleed. I don't want to hear it anymore. Everyone around me is sick of hearing it too..no one wants to hear it...no one wants to hear me complain about it. Sometimes the song stops for a little..sometimes I'm able to run away and hide where the singer cannot find me....but he always ends up finding me and it always just resumes...picks up right where it left off.
This may be a stupid analogy. Many of you are completely lost as to right now. But I am frusterated and annoyed and angry and upset. I want this song to end soooo bad! I try to stop it, but I don't know how. I don't know if I'll ever get away from it. I feel like I'm too weak to even be able to. It was good for awhile...but I feel it slowly coming back and I'm scared of what it will do to me.
I am not excited for summer anymore. I would rather stay at school all year round. I love you guys, I'm excited for the times we'll have, but to me summer will be endless work, an endless loathsome routine of obligation....plus this...this song that wont leave me alone and grows so much louder everytime I'm back home. I need to get away.
Ahhhhh just make it stop!