Hello 2011
Well, it's here, well almost here. 2010 ended up being a great year, even though it seemed to pass by extremely quickly again. Probably the best thing that happened this year is i socialized alot more than past years. In spite of my most recent facebook rantlett. Also this year, even though it happened really too late, I finally came to terms with what my goals are for my artwork. Alot of 2010 I was trying to find something else to do, something more "acceptable". Now I no longer care about what is acceptable. I want to draw and take pictures, it probably wont make me a millionare but I know I'll b alright. I think I would probably be more miserable spending my whole life at a job I didn't really want just because it broght in a good salary. I did not experience a lot of self discovery like 2009 but there is nothing wrong with that I guess.
In any case, my goals in resolutions for 2011.
To be able to stand up to the people in my life who are diliberately causing me grief and not feel like a bitch. I've never been an assertive person because I always figured that makes me uppity and nasty. But I understand now that standing up to myself does not make me a bitch. And if anyone thinks so, that just means they want me to do what they want and I am sick of that.
To move out of my family's house, even if it means i have to stay with a friend for a while. As much as i do love them (well I try) I do see their presence really bringing me down mentally. I know I'm not really loved nor needed there save for my job so why should I stay there anymore?
To NO LONGER let my past dictate my future.
To have the courage to go to more meetups in my local lolita comm. I've only been to 2 so far and they all are very nice, so why shouldn't I want to hang out with them more?
To FINALLY by my first brand lolita dress! ^o^
I want to also travel more.
I'm not going to ask for love in 2011, I'm quite done with that. If it happens it happens but instead I want to meet more friends that I can hang out with on a regular. I hate that the people I would hang out if given the oppertunity all live so far away from me! I rly hope my mom gets a car this year! >_<
As always, I want to improve my craft skills. Especially drawing and sewing. I decided I don't want to submit any of my work to anywere until I am completely sure in my heart that my work is at its best.
Also, as always, I want to learn to be comfortable with myself. I know there is nothing wrong with me but I want to believe it for myself, not only when my friends compliment me. I want to love myself and be able to see what other people see.
Those are my main goals for this year. I'm sure that by 2012 I can make all of these possible. And so, let 2011 begin! :-)