That's right ~ RAGING TIME!!!!
It's obligatory, you know what I am about to say...
First, for those who are curious, things in my household are beginning to feel normal again. If that is even possible. An did not take the news well and Noah no longer seems as silly but more mature and stuff, not like him but I'm not complaining. This may sound odd but it seems like this whole ordeal with my uncle has, if anything, made us closer. More of a real family. That makes me both happy and sad.
Less than 3 weeks left in the semester. I can do it! I can do it! Okay, time for the true topic of this entry. Rambling rampage ahead...
I know that technically Versailles has no real obligation to come back to the US (especially after that whole thing with that bitch threatening to sue them and the dissaster at AUSA) and that, in all fairness, Latin America has not been visited by them at all, but there are still. Now I'll admit, this post is kind of selfish, especially since I have at least seen them up close even if I could not go to their concerts because of my health, because of circumstances, or because of cockhurt Sanjaya fans pressuring me. But there are some fans who have never seen Versailles at all.
Take Angela for example, can you imagine the happiness on her face when I told her that there is a good chance she would get to see Teru this year? She's never really had anyone she liked or looked up to until now, even though most of the girls in her class are Justin Bieber and Jonas Brothers addicts, she has, to my mind, been much more mature than that even though she is still a child. But now, at this rate she won't even get that. I'm so sad for her, also for kono_ame and other fans who have never seen them at all. Despite the shit that dominates our popular music charts here in America, there are more Versailles fans here than you think.
Perhaps I was right to assume when Kamijo said they were going to "america" that he meant only Latin America? I am now trying to move mountains and rivers to see is there ANY way I can go to the Mexico City concert. I don't HAVE to see Miyavi in DC, even though I would like to, and I could skip AWA since I was going to go alone anyway. But it seems no matter how I try to budget this, it does not seem like I will be able to go without totally going overbudget. (and it's the fact that I don't WANT to go to Mexico!)
This was supposed to be the year I achieved my dream of getting to see them live, the least I could do for not accepting them for so long. I had my outfit planned (cream colored rose print sundress similar to something I saw on Jesus Diamante's website), got a new camera, freshened up on my Japanese and everything! Versailles was one of the main causes of me and my sister actually becoming sisters again and this was supposed to be not just a concert but a bonding moment for us. This was also going to be the time when I stopped being so shy and distrustful of people and tried to make other friends with other roses!
I don't get it, I don't want to sound pan-americanist (cause in truth I HATE LIVING HERE!) but how can they just SKIP US?! How can they just turn a blind eye to us? Do they worry how we will react to Massashi? Are they worried that if they book a large enough venue the christian homophobes would protest and ask for Hizaki's head? Are they worried about another repeat of AUSA? (if that's the case than just don't come to cons!) I don't understand and it's not helping that no one is saying anything about this, not giving us any clarity.
It really is sad, I now wish, more than ever, that I had stayed at AUSA, who knows? My doctor could have been wrong, perhaps I would have made it through the concert, she doesn't know 100%! I also wish I had not let those ppl at my old fanbase pressure me out of going to the LA concert. If I had known 2 years ago what Sanjaya would become now I would have gone and not have given it a second thought. I am such a dumbass, WHAT THE FUCK DID I EVER SEE IN THAT PRICK?! At least Versailles from what I could see are reasonably kind to ALL of their fans and don't play favorites with any of us.And WHY DID I NOT SEE THE TRUTH SOONER?! That most of those ppl were a bunch of elitists and most of them have dumped him and gone on to the next American Idol cooperate boy toy whore. My love and admiration for Jasmine You will stand the test of time because unlike Sanjaya, he actually gave me a reason to look up to him other than his sexiness. But I guess it was just not meant to be.
That is all I can say without becoming emotional. Naturally if a miracle occurs and dates ARE announced I will delete this post, of course. But right now that is my rage.
Yours Jasmine