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long time no update...... what is there really to say to you all? I'm still not exactly sure what can be said... most of you dislike me whether you'l say it straight out or not. i dislike a lot of you as well in some way or another. i'm sorry that i backed out and screwed things over for lexi with coming back.... but it was not a hasty decision and for me to come back took changing three flights, hotel arrangements, and giving away about 450 dollars worth of tickets for a show on its opening night, a show i have wanted to see since last year when i first heard they were making it and that my mother was dying to see as well. it may not always seem like it and as much as it pains me to admit this, i love this show. it's very frustrating to be always put in a guys part when i cant actually sing THAT low. being able to go that low is so very different from getting there and still sounding good. i know my parts and they dont need to be sung along with me. if i am having a problem it has nothing to do with knowing it, it just has to do with actually being able to do it. just like with omar. he cant go as high as you try and make him and believe me... it sucks to be the person asked to do something almost physically impossible for you. *sigh* i give up.... what good is complaining with this thing when all it does is make people dislike you more than they already do.