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A - I feel bad that because of me Alex doesn't spend more time with his friends.
B - I understand why things have to be this way, but I still feel guilty.
So basically this is a really random entry, but oh well. Alex and I have talked about this a lot, and I mean, I totally understand why he doesn't want to hang out with his friends. And I feel bad that it's my fault, but it is. I'll say this, I like pretty much everyone from West Salem. Those that I don't adore I have no problems being around. I don't hate or dislike anyone.
But the only two that are friends (friends, mind you, not being used in the traditional sense as I would consider a lot of West Salem people, Alex's friends, friends of mine also, just that I'm talkative around)...Trinity & Alex. But I mean, when I'm with Trinity, when it's just the two of us...I give her a run for her money, talking wise. And I'm sure you all know how much she talks. And I talk just as much, though you've probably never seen that. I talk a lot around Alex too, random blurbs, stories, meaningless ramblings, but around others...I don't. And he doesn't like it when I'm quiet. And I don't do it to be mean or so that he doesn't hang out with his friends, because I'm constantly saying he should, but I know what he means. I can understand that he wants to be around me and have me talk, instead of sitting there quietly in the corner ignored by everyone silently taking everything in like I do when I'm around a lot of people.
But basically I'm still kind of sad that I make it so he doesn't do more things with his friends, but I do understand why he doesn't. I don't know, I felt like writing about something random, so there it is.
Other than that, today was ok. It kind of sucked, I mean, not really, but it was just not our day, for Alex and I. He had to work at three, until close, and we were going to do something before and after. We got done with church and went back to his house and his mom was like oh Zoe called, from Hot Topic (which 99.9% of the time means she wants him to work when he's not supposed to) and so he didn't want to call in. And then we went downstairs and my phone rang, and it was my dad, saying Suncoast called. Called back and, gee, guess what, they wanted me to work. So Alex ended up calling Hot Topic and going in eariler, though that was only like 10:30 and we didn't go in for another two hours, so that was nice. I was kind of happy though because I got to work, for five hours, and I mean Alex was working anyways so it's not like I could have been doing something with him or anything, and it's money. Probably close to $30, maybe, and it's not like it was hard work. Though I did get a huge metal thing dropped on my head that kind of hurt, and I was such a clutz, I got "fired" twice, Matt's funny, he kept teasing he was going to fire me because I kept dropping things, but he's not in charge anyways, so it's ok <3
Oh! And when we went to get me home. Alex and I walked outside, and heard the dogs or something, growling, and snarling, and it was kind of creepy, and so he yelled and Buddy came trotting over, and so we looked behind the cars and there was a racoon =( And they had to kill it, because it couldn't walk, and was in pain, and it was really sad, and it took a while to find a gun, and then the thing just wouldn't die, and I know that sounds mean, but it was suffering and wouldn't have lived, best to put it out of it's misery. Poor old coon.
B - I understand why things have to be this way, but I still feel guilty.
So basically this is a really random entry, but oh well. Alex and I have talked about this a lot, and I mean, I totally understand why he doesn't want to hang out with his friends. And I feel bad that it's my fault, but it is. I'll say this, I like pretty much everyone from West Salem. Those that I don't adore I have no problems being around. I don't hate or dislike anyone.
But the only two that are friends (friends, mind you, not being used in the traditional sense as I would consider a lot of West Salem people, Alex's friends, friends of mine also, just that I'm talkative around)...Trinity & Alex. But I mean, when I'm with Trinity, when it's just the two of us...I give her a run for her money, talking wise. And I'm sure you all know how much she talks. And I talk just as much, though you've probably never seen that. I talk a lot around Alex too, random blurbs, stories, meaningless ramblings, but around others...I don't. And he doesn't like it when I'm quiet. And I don't do it to be mean or so that he doesn't hang out with his friends, because I'm constantly saying he should, but I know what he means. I can understand that he wants to be around me and have me talk, instead of sitting there quietly in the corner ignored by everyone silently taking everything in like I do when I'm around a lot of people.
But basically I'm still kind of sad that I make it so he doesn't do more things with his friends, but I do understand why he doesn't. I don't know, I felt like writing about something random, so there it is.
Other than that, today was ok. It kind of sucked, I mean, not really, but it was just not our day, for Alex and I. He had to work at three, until close, and we were going to do something before and after. We got done with church and went back to his house and his mom was like oh Zoe called, from Hot Topic (which 99.9% of the time means she wants him to work when he's not supposed to) and so he didn't want to call in. And then we went downstairs and my phone rang, and it was my dad, saying Suncoast called. Called back and, gee, guess what, they wanted me to work. So Alex ended up calling Hot Topic and going in eariler, though that was only like 10:30 and we didn't go in for another two hours, so that was nice. I was kind of happy though because I got to work, for five hours, and I mean Alex was working anyways so it's not like I could have been doing something with him or anything, and it's money. Probably close to $30, maybe, and it's not like it was hard work. Though I did get a huge metal thing dropped on my head that kind of hurt, and I was such a clutz, I got "fired" twice, Matt's funny, he kept teasing he was going to fire me because I kept dropping things, but he's not in charge anyways, so it's ok <3
Oh! And when we went to get me home. Alex and I walked outside, and heard the dogs or something, growling, and snarling, and it was kind of creepy, and so he yelled and Buddy came trotting over, and so we looked behind the cars and there was a racoon =( And they had to kill it, because it couldn't walk, and was in pain, and it was really sad, and it took a while to find a gun, and then the thing just wouldn't die, and I know that sounds mean, but it was suffering and wouldn't have lived, best to put it out of it's misery. Poor old coon.