Destination unknown (but probably Aldinga)
So here i am, right on the verge of finishing uni. All thats stopping me is a jounral of my time at the clinic, and a 2000 word take home exam. And i just cant do it, i'm literally wandering around the house looking for distractions. I did the dishes, i played with the dogs, i went for a walk for gods sake....maybe i'll have a bath?
Eugh, why cant i just do it! Maybe because once it's done my uni life will be over (forever?) and thats a little scary and i dont want to think about working for the rest of my life and never going to uni again.
Apart from that slight fear and a twinge of anger i kind of feel nothing. All this craps about at the moment like The Secret and how to be a happy person, positive in negative out blah blah blah. And i'm not unhappy, i'm kind of just indifferent. I have a little bit of anger that i'm saving to unleash on the world at an appropriate time, but appart from that its kind of just all blah.
I dont feel so bad about it because i know at least two people who have said the same thing to me recently. Maybe i need some kind of big change, get out of this crappy little rut.
I think, partly, it because i'm waiting for everything at the moment. Like with work, ive put out a bunch of applications and now its just waiting for everything to get started (well hopefully). But because i'm not doing anything at the moment i have nothing to keep my mind occupied. I hate being unoccupied. I could theoretically do my assignments but what fun is that?
Oh well, i'll get the assignments done by the due dates, and then next weekend i'm probably going to Aldinga with a bunch of friends and we can relax and be merry and whatever. Im hanging to get out of this place for a few days so that can be the bright spot to look foward to.
Eugh, why cant i just do it! Maybe because once it's done my uni life will be over (forever?) and thats a little scary and i dont want to think about working for the rest of my life and never going to uni again.
Apart from that slight fear and a twinge of anger i kind of feel nothing. All this craps about at the moment like The Secret and how to be a happy person, positive in negative out blah blah blah. And i'm not unhappy, i'm kind of just indifferent. I have a little bit of anger that i'm saving to unleash on the world at an appropriate time, but appart from that its kind of just all blah.
I dont feel so bad about it because i know at least two people who have said the same thing to me recently. Maybe i need some kind of big change, get out of this crappy little rut.
I think, partly, it because i'm waiting for everything at the moment. Like with work, ive put out a bunch of applications and now its just waiting for everything to get started (well hopefully). But because i'm not doing anything at the moment i have nothing to keep my mind occupied. I hate being unoccupied. I could theoretically do my assignments but what fun is that?
Oh well, i'll get the assignments done by the due dates, and then next weekend i'm probably going to Aldinga with a bunch of friends and we can relax and be merry and whatever. Im hanging to get out of this place for a few days so that can be the bright spot to look foward to.