Kagefumi (07/29)
Title: Kagefumi
Author: Fabi & Dani (dani_mathoz)
Translator: br_arashi Thank you ♥
Pairing: Ohmiya (main), Aiba x ? (mentioned)
Genre: Romance and Angst
Rating: NC-17
Summary: 'Two lonely and suffered hearts look in the shadows of an agitated city, the light that can free them from the darkness in which they live'
Disclaimer: I don't own them, sadly ;-;
Just a reminder, English is not our first language please be kind ♥
CHAPTER 7
Why?
Closing my eyes in face of the things ahead
What should I do?
Alone in a dark room
What I wanted to reach by stretching my hand was a hidden SOS
Nights and days spin around my head
Like a broken car out of control
Face Down
Ninomiya twitched his mouth in a doubtful expression, while alternating his arms in his sight. In one hand, he was holding a black jeans jacket, in the other, a kaki linen cardigan.
- Which one do you think I should use? - he asked in a serious tone, while showing the clothes to the turtle, which seemed to understand his dilemma. - I want something elegant, but cool, you get it?
Niji’s goiter moved a few times as if he grasped what his owner meant it, even without being explicit. He was trying to choose an outfit he could use if, hypothetically, someone invited him out, but that wouldn’t be too obvious that he had prepared it ahead.
- Why are you staring at me like this? - he sighed, placing the clothes inside the closet and sitting in the edge of the bed. - You think I’m being silly, right? Maybe you’re right - he laid down, feeling suddenly ridiculous. - After all, it’s not as if Oh-chan would show up in the store every day to see me. Actually, I don’t think he will return…
He had no reason to do so. Not if all Ohno wanted from the beginning was to repeat what they did in the first they’ve met. The meeting had been almost the same, after all: a lively place, drinks, their bodies moving in the dance floor, touching each other teasingly.
- Would you like to go elsewhere? - the tanned man invited him, after another kiss, his body pressing his against the wall.
Yes, he wanted it. The kisses and hugs they have shared for almost two hours weren’t enough anymore and all the cells in his body were begging for more.
However…
- It’s getting late... - he tightened his hug. - I need to go home, Oh-chan - his voice answered, against his desire.
He wasn’t playing hard to get, but something inside him, something he couldn’t explain, urged him to deny.
- I see - the man seemed frustrated, but didn’t insist. He faced him for a few seconds and then gave him a last kiss. Soft, just a touch of their lips, but it took them more than usual to a peck. - Maybe another day…
He just nodded, still unable to understand why he had refused the invitation.
Even at that moment, he had not understood his decision. Maybe he didn’t want Ohno to think he was an easy lay, the promiscuous kind who would lay down randomly with anyone. It was Ridiculous, obviously, considering they had already had sex in their first meeting.
So, what kind of image was he trying to preserve?
- I should have accepted, right? What if he won’t look for me anymore, Niji? - he asked, before standing up, taking a grey sweater and dressing it. - You know what? - he shrugged, kneeling down to caress its head. - Maybe it’s better this way. It’s not as if I’ve been looking forward to this - he concluded.
Then, he took a few steps to the kitchen and took a dish wish its food and a few pieces of sweet potatoes over the sink. He placed it on the floor, beside a pot with clean water.
- Eat properly, will you? I will come back as soon as I can. Itekimasu! - he said, before leaving the house, heading to the station.
That day, the time passed by at work slower than usual. As expected, Ohno Satoshi didn’t show up, as well as in the six following days.
In the eight day, Ninomiya wasn’t looking at the door anxiously at each announce of a client’s arrival. However, his memories of the man were unavoidable, as soon as the store received a load of products to the release of Cosmos’ album, the new band of the guitar player Ohno admired.
The release attracted many clients that day; much more for the band had postponed the release in two months from the previously advertised day, due to legal issues, involving the guitar player Raiden and the members from his previous group. The euphoria that happened when finally the CDs were on sale made his working day exhaustive. In the end of his shift, Nino sighed in relief.
He changed his uniform to his personal clothes and, when he was already leaving the store, he remembered something and went back to buy one of the few CDs that had left from the tsunami of fans who wanted to see Raiden’s new work.
All the way home, in the train, he tried to convince himself that his acquisition had nothing to do with the promise that he would reserve one to Ohno when the album arrived at the store. He was also a fan of the guitar player.
He was tired when arrived at the apartment complex and he sighed in relief when he stopped in front of his door. He took out the key, but didn’t even manage to insert it in the keyhole, noticing it was already open.
In situations like that, he should be careful. However, his mind had more worry than caution. He barely stepped inside when he noticed everything was overturned.
- You took your time, Kazunari... Long time no see!
The sarcastic voice pierced not only his ears, but also his soul and memories as a tsunami, bringing back his deepest sorrows.
- How did you find me?
The man, sat lazily on a chair, smiled.
- You look different... - he said, getting closer and, ignoring the question, he held a strand of Kazu’s hair in his fingers. - What does this hair mean? I thought you had already overcome your rebel phase… How long has it been? Ten years?
Ninomiya swallowed hard, his last memory with that man striking him with a brutal strength.
- Send this man away, Kaa-chan… Please…
- I know you are scared - his mother answered, her hand covering her injured eye - but try to understand your father, Kazu…
- He is not my father! - he yelled, his soul hurt. - He’s a monster, can’t you see?
- He is just lost… It was my fault, I…
- Please, mom… - he hugged the woman, protectively. - No more excuses to his attitudes… For how long will you endure this man abusing you for no reason? Get rid of him… please…
- You don’t understand, son…
- I understand more than you think, Kaa-chan! - he yelled again, at the same time that strong knocks started coming from the bedroom door. - If you don’t want to send him away, we can both leave this house… - he proposed, holding her shoulders, his tears running down freely.
- Open this door! Let’s talk, ok? I know I went overboard, please... - his fake howling seemed almost genuine.
- I can leave school; I’ll work to support us. I’ll…
- You are just a child… You have no idea what you’re talking about - she said, getting up to open the door.
- Don’t open this door, mom…
- Your father is sorry, Kazu…
- Do you still fall for this talk? How many times has he apologized? - he asked, placing himself between his mother and the door. - And after that, how many times had he hit you?
Obviously, the fragile woman didn’t reply, her eyes sparkling with abnegation.
- Mom…
- Get out of my way… - she ordered, pushing him aside.
- No.
- Kazu…
- Before I leave, you will have to choose - he gave her an ultimatum.
The hurt in the woman’s eyes was evident. However, she didn’t even blink when she answered.
- He is my husband. It is my duty to stay beside him…
Her apathy annoyed him, making him lose control.
- It’s a good thing my father died before finding out you’re just an ordinary woman, who would rather have a drug addicted abuser in your bed than staying beside your son! - he spat, angry.
Even shaky and weak, her hand slapped his face fiercely. Shocked, he was unable to react for a few seconds.
He just came to his senses when he heard the voice of the woman who gave him birth apologizing for something she had not done.
Disgusted and unable to handle it anymore, he left the house with just his clothes and a box with his turtle in his hands.
He had only fifteen and that was the last time he saw his mom.
Nino disentangled from the man’s touch, hurt and annoyed.
- How did you find me? - he asked one more time.
- I have my ways.
- Miura-senpai... - he guessed. - You two still have the same supplier?
- No, I met him by chance. I confess I was rather surprised when he told me you have got closer again. I thought you had completely cut your ties with the past. But I see I was wrong. You’re just an ungrateful son. Won’t you ask me about your mother?
His Adam’s apple moved, showing his tension. A part of him was curious about the woman. Was she all right? Healthy, in spite of everything? However… right then, the need to get rid of that man was more important than a feeling that he had deliberately buried.
- What do you want? - he ignored his sarcasm.
- You know what I want... - the man answered, changing his expression to a serious one. - I need money.
- And what’s with me?
- Don’t be silly! Everything I found in this stupid room was that stupid animal. I’m surprised you still have him… - he pointed to Niji, who was resting in a corner of the kitchen. Nino sighed in relief when he saw him apparently fine. - And this useless change… - he took out of his pocket the money Nino was saving to pay the rent. - I need more, Kazu-chan.
- I don’t have anything else - he sad shakily due to the tone used to say his name.
- Don’t be a bad boy… Help your father…
- You’re not my father! - he yelled, disgusted.
- Stop kidding me! - the man threatened, taking him by the collar. For a moment, Nino froze, remembering all the times he arrived home drunk or high, willing to take it out on him and his mother the frustrations with his life. Angrily, he pushed the man and taking advantage of his unbalance, took the turtle in his arms and, once again, ran away.
That night, the lights of the town weren’t enough to calm him down. He needed something more substantial.
- Senpai… Please, I need something really stronger. I need to forget…
The handsome man who opened the door smiled, giving him passage.
- Anything you want, my dearest Kazu…
< Previous Next >
Note: Hello minna! Sorry for our delay >.< Damn RL... Well this chapter revealed a bit more of Nino's life and this scene of his stepfather will be very important from now on... Sadly as refuge he went to Miura-senpai D: What will happen? Well we will see in the next chapter~ Thank you once again (and always) for the lovely comments... It's very special each comment, thank you from the bottom of our hearts ♥
Comments are ♥