i am missing you to death

[dani_is_love]

i miss him so much. i know we had our differences but for a month and a half he was the only constant thing in my life and i owe him so much for that. i wanted to cry last night on the phone when i was texting him, because he's still texting me and i figured he'd stop you know? out of sight out of mind. and today he texted me and he was like "i miss you." why does everyone always leave? why didnt he want to be with me enough to stay? i know that's selfish and i know i shouldnt take him leaving to heart because he had been planning it before we met, but i dunno. i just fucking miss him so much.

last night i hung out with kids in chinatown and did saki bombs, ate sushi, smoked pot, and took a muscle relaxer. it was pretty chill. randy was hitting on me and it's like "hunny please, you're no aaron."

i dunno what's going on with becca. i guess i'm just waiting for her to not like me anymore. because isn't that what everyone does?