In Loving Memory of My Grandmom
its been 42 hrs and 5 minutes.
On tuesday july 10th 2007 my grandmom passed away.
this is the first time i'm actually writing this down on paper because i still do not want to believe this happend.
i'm terribly sad, in denial, wishing i could call her one last time, or see her one last time.
it hurts because i miss her so much.
and i feel i have cried so much, that i cannot cry anymore.
Eileen Flamminio,
my grandmother
my mother
my parent
my guardian
my family
& many more things.
she raised me from age five through eighteen.
because of her wisdom, knowlege, and love, she and my grandfather, have molded me into the person i am today.
recieving that phone call, was one of the worst things i have ever experienced.
hearing that someone you love is not responding.
it makes you sad, panic, cry, physically sick, hard to breathe, shake/shiver...
it makes you do whatever you can to get to see them as soon as possible.
i settled my cash drawer, and drove immediately to Lewes, DE.
driving for 2 hrs in rain, traffic, and road work makes it feel like a lifetime.
when i finally arrived, it was too late. she had passed away @5pm and i arrived at 6. feeling helpless, i fell into my aunts arms when she told me the terrible news. crying histerically, there was nothing i could do.
she passed away at home. so when i went into her room to see her, i wasnt ready to say goodbye and i still am not.
when i hugged her, i wanted so badly for her to hug me back, but i knew that what i was longing for wasnt possible.
my grandmom lived to be 78 years old.
she had a good long fulfilling life.
and a wonderful last 9 days since she came out of the hospital.
i am thankful that i got to see her last sunday and monday.
i called her everyday until she passed.
monday @8:30 pm was the last time i heard her voice.
i just miss her so much, and im so sad that i cannot call her and see how her day was.
i am a mess.
i cannot write anymore today....
her viewing will be Friday@7pm at D'Anjolell memorial homes in Upper Darby
& her service will be Saturday@10am at Sacred Heart Church
thank you for reading this.
-Danielle Hathaway