my life as of now
sorry I haven't updated in like 3 months. My computer has been down and I have been using my mom's computer. And i never bother going on livejournal on here because I have a special saved folder for all my favorite journals to read. But anyways, my life is same old same old. Work and partying on the weekends. I have also lost 2 friends in the past 2 months. My friend Lindsay who I was so close with was killed by a snowplow on Feb. 27. And another friend who i have lost touch with in the past 2 years passed away in L.A. where she has been living and going to school. I have been having a really hard time with Lindsay's death. We were super tight all through high school but lost touch after. But we still remained friends when we ran into each other out at concerts or the bars. The last time I saw her was exactly 2 weeks before she passed on February 13th. Even though we weren't the best of friends anymore, I miss her like we still were super close. I miss her and I feel like I was an awful friend and i regret soooo many things. I have learned to NEVER take anyone or anything for granted. I lost my gramma who was like my mother and my best friend in 2008, and then my dad 8 months later on Halloween in a hunting accident. And then Lindsay and Brandi. Around here, the weather is always a blizzard or something and no one thinks anything of it. Driving through a foot of snow is no big deal. So when i heard Lindsay was killed by a snow plow it really was a reality check for me. It could happen to ANYONE i know, including me. And the weather wasnt even that bad that day. Some slush on the road, but nothing unusual that we HAVEN'T dealt with since the age of 16. And then Brandi go pneumonia and also bit by a bad spider (I'm not sure of the entire details of how she passed exactly, but im pretty sure these had something to do with it), and those 2 things could happen to anyone of us. It really has been freaking me out. I have been a depressed mess and i panic everyday something is going to happen to Ryan. (We have now been together for 5 1/2 years woo hooo!!!)So everyone....love everyone around you, don't hold grudges, and don't say bad things about your friends, because you may regret them down the road, and will never be able to take them back. Ok...the Sabres are in overtime, and I wouldn't be a true western new yorker if i stopped watching. facebook is blowing up every 2 seconds about this game. Oh yea, im addicted to facebook to find me on there. I love new friends! Danielle Stocking. Just search me =]