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I am so sick of talking about my "feelings". I have been talking with tyler and I know I will have to talk to andrew about things and I just really want to have some freaking fun! I thought I wanted a relationship but now im just like screw everyone else. I know everything I am saying right now is immature and self centered but I want to enjoy college. I broke up with Andrew to see other people and I have done stuff with other guys but I havent found anyone that im head over heels for and really enjoy spending time with (I enjoy spending time witht tyler though, hes cool). I guess im still trying to find what I like and what I dont and I think im scared of commitment. I mean I find plenty of guys cute but do I ever really talk to them, its immature of me to not want a relationship because I could be doing stuff with other guys but now that im single I really dont (if that makes any sense). So bascially I am really confused about relationships. Maybe I should be more aggressive about meeting people or maybe I should just go with the flow. I dont want to force anything though, thats not healthy. So well will see what happens I guess. Im not going to do anything I dont want to.