◊ 21 ◊
Sounds like there are some interesting things going on within our little world these days. With the current sedate pace of life in my little corner, its enough to make a girl long for the excitement, despite some people's more vocal protests. Idle hands are the devil's playground after all.
If I was ever glad before about having no blood relations lurking about anywhere, it's definitely a sure thing now. Being an orphan's the way to go, seriously. I don't know how people deal with it all of their lives, but I guess I could see the upsides too. Even better when you're the outsider who's finally got a foothold with another female who has tons of delightful insider information and embarrassing childhood secrets. ♥
But aside from that, nothing too exciting to report on. Compared to all the other happenings in the Districts it's positively boring. An annoying brat being the only thing to help the hours pass away with another not-always-annoying brat (♥) hidden not twenty feet and a cheap wooden door away. This is indeed the life.
[Private to Gaara]
Fair warning to you brat. You need to find somewhere else to be for one night. You can go up and harass Sai, you can go pay your sister a visit, but I want the place to myself and you're not to come back until the next day, preferably some time late in the afternoon. Your sister let me know that 'Kurou's birthday is coming up and I think I'm going to try and do something for it.
Even if you don't want to, it's probably for your own sanity and well being that you're not in the near vicinity that night ♥
[/Private]
[The following is a handwritten excerpt from a physical journal Anko's started keeping with nothing else to do and with too much clattering up her brain; The majority of it is addressed to Kankurou under the assumption that he will find it one day. Currently private and unhackable though who's to say it won't be left lying around to be discovered at a later time? ]
It's been a long time since I've written this much, probably not since I had to fill out a shitload of reports daily while working for old man Danzou.
But it's the only way I can get a lot of this off my chest without pissing you off or upsetting you, neither of them something you need right now when I barely see you as it is. I know what you're doing and I know it's for me but you have no idea how much it sucks knowing you're so close but still so far away and untouchable. And I can't complain or protest because you're not going to listen to me regardless and time is getting too short as it is. You have no idea how much it means to me that you're working like you are, so much so that even now I can't bring myself to tell you that I'm pretty sure that it's going to come too late now. Even though I may tell you I'm off to see Rin the truth is I haven't seen her for a couple of weeks now for fear of what she's going to say. I hate having to lie to you but it's for the best in the case.
Even in my own home I try and keep to myself, not even trusting whatever insight Gaara may have. I feel myself fading a little more each day and I fucking hate it. I don't like being this dependent on everyone. I'm so physically exhausted and I'm mentally tired of having to show otherwise, to continue to somehow keep a normal face for everyone day to day. But I do it and I hope each day that you're that much closer to that damned antidote that our world and our future revolves around.
Your birthday's coming up and I hope everything will work out perfectly and that you'll enjoy it. Your brother's getting kicked to the curb so for the first time in a long time, it will be some time with just the two of us and regardless if we're up all night fucking like bunnies with barely a word or just some quiet time together I don't care (though a healthy combination of the two would be ideal~), I just want it to be me and you and the hell with everyone else.
Remember when we used to have those kind of times?
I found myself reminiscing of our time together down in Celo together this morning, back in the beginning. We might not have even had a bed and I ended up wearing your clothes more than my own but those were some good times once we found that we could exist together without killing one another. In fact in my little hideaway up on the roof I have a similar set-up hidden where I've been spending most of my time here of late. Just some old blankets and pillows piled up (one of yours that you're not missing since you never come to bed anymore) and it's just like old times. ♥ Maybe I'll bring you up here for your birthday, I think you might get a kick out of it.
If I was ever glad before about having no blood relations lurking about anywhere, it's definitely a sure thing now. Being an orphan's the way to go, seriously. I don't know how people deal with it all of their lives, but I guess I could see the upsides too. Even better when you're the outsider who's finally got a foothold with another female who has tons of delightful insider information and embarrassing childhood secrets. ♥
But aside from that, nothing too exciting to report on. Compared to all the other happenings in the Districts it's positively boring. An annoying brat being the only thing to help the hours pass away with another not-always-annoying brat (♥) hidden not twenty feet and a cheap wooden door away. This is indeed the life.
[Private to Gaara]
Fair warning to you brat. You need to find somewhere else to be for one night. You can go up and harass Sai, you can go pay your sister a visit, but I want the place to myself and you're not to come back until the next day, preferably some time late in the afternoon. Your sister let me know that 'Kurou's birthday is coming up and I think I'm going to try and do something for it.
Even if you don't want to, it's probably for your own sanity and well being that you're not in the near vicinity that night ♥
[/Private]
[The following is a handwritten excerpt from a physical journal Anko's started keeping with nothing else to do and with too much clattering up her brain; The majority of it is addressed to Kankurou under the assumption that he will find it one day. Currently private and unhackable though who's to say it won't be left lying around to be discovered at a later time? ]
It's been a long time since I've written this much, probably not since I had to fill out a shitload of reports daily while working for old man Danzou.
But it's the only way I can get a lot of this off my chest without pissing you off or upsetting you, neither of them something you need right now when I barely see you as it is. I know what you're doing and I know it's for me but you have no idea how much it sucks knowing you're so close but still so far away and untouchable. And I can't complain or protest because you're not going to listen to me regardless and time is getting too short as it is. You have no idea how much it means to me that you're working like you are, so much so that even now I can't bring myself to tell you that I'm pretty sure that it's going to come too late now. Even though I may tell you I'm off to see Rin the truth is I haven't seen her for a couple of weeks now for fear of what she's going to say. I hate having to lie to you but it's for the best in the case.
Even in my own home I try and keep to myself, not even trusting whatever insight Gaara may have. I feel myself fading a little more each day and I fucking hate it. I don't like being this dependent on everyone. I'm so physically exhausted and I'm mentally tired of having to show otherwise, to continue to somehow keep a normal face for everyone day to day. But I do it and I hope each day that you're that much closer to that damned antidote that our world and our future revolves around.
Your birthday's coming up and I hope everything will work out perfectly and that you'll enjoy it. Your brother's getting kicked to the curb so for the first time in a long time, it will be some time with just the two of us and regardless if we're up all night fucking like bunnies with barely a word or just some quiet time together I don't care (though a healthy combination of the two would be ideal~), I just want it to be me and you and the hell with everyone else.
Remember when we used to have those kind of times?
I found myself reminiscing of our time together down in Celo together this morning, back in the beginning. We might not have even had a bed and I ended up wearing your clothes more than my own but those were some good times once we found that we could exist together without killing one another. In fact in my little hideaway up on the roof I have a similar set-up hidden where I've been spending most of my time here of late. Just some old blankets and pillows piled up (one of yours that you're not missing since you never come to bed anymore) and it's just like old times. ♥ Maybe I'll bring you up here for your birthday, I think you might get a kick out of it.