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So I start my clinicals in less than 2 weeks and I am nervous but I am slightly excited.
I also just found out that my HPV (the cervical cancer kind) is in remission for now. I cant believe that my immune system did something right.
My IC is being a painful bitch like usual. Mostly b/c it doesnt like the DMSO's I'm putting it through. I have surgery in 3 weeks to see if my disease is getting any better or worse.
I've been reading alot about how this disease can promote and worsen already present anxiety/depression symptoms. The more I read, the more it makes sense to me and my situation. I have nothing to really be depressed about but for some reason my subconscious likes to harbor alot of crap and whatnot. For the past 3 or so weeks I've just been feeling like I'm going through life, and not living it. I cant really feel happy, or loved or any good emotion. Its really bothering the shit out of me b/c for once I have alot of things going for me and I cant really feel much about it. Just kinda numb. I see a psychologist but I dont feel like thats enough. I just want some kind of relief from feeling like I cant feel anything good in my life. I've been debating talking to my Uro about depression/anxiety meds that may help. Any suggestions from anyone?
I'd really like to start feeling more, before it starts ruining things in my life.
I also just found out that my HPV (the cervical cancer kind) is in remission for now. I cant believe that my immune system did something right.
My IC is being a painful bitch like usual. Mostly b/c it doesnt like the DMSO's I'm putting it through. I have surgery in 3 weeks to see if my disease is getting any better or worse.
I've been reading alot about how this disease can promote and worsen already present anxiety/depression symptoms. The more I read, the more it makes sense to me and my situation. I have nothing to really be depressed about but for some reason my subconscious likes to harbor alot of crap and whatnot. For the past 3 or so weeks I've just been feeling like I'm going through life, and not living it. I cant really feel happy, or loved or any good emotion. Its really bothering the shit out of me b/c for once I have alot of things going for me and I cant really feel much about it. Just kinda numb. I see a psychologist but I dont feel like thats enough. I just want some kind of relief from feeling like I cant feel anything good in my life. I've been debating talking to my Uro about depression/anxiety meds that may help. Any suggestions from anyone?
I'd really like to start feeling more, before it starts ruining things in my life.