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[dangerousangles]

It's pretty late so I figure you're already asleep, or with Scar, cos of her brother and all. Which sucks, by the way. Sympathies your way, and hers and his.

Anyway- I don't know if you saw it, but it's all come out recently that Chloe's been seeing Jocelin and keeping it all from us. And, right. I don't like Jocelin, but Misha and Von've been

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[thegraceoflove]

Lucas... I understand how messy this situation is, and even from just what you've said, I can see the potential for it getting even messier, but I have to wonder if you're disregarding your own ability to help your friends because you know that Christopher is there to fall back on. And maybe this is the case and maybe it isn't, but before you ask me to bring him back again, can you be sure that you can't fix this without him?

Also, I'm worried because last time he was here, Jocelin mentioned him by name on his journal and Del got really upset- as much as I know you all love him, he's not a careful man and I think you need to think carefully whether the risk of bringing him back outweights the risk of trying to deal with the situations without him.

I'm not going to make any decisions for you, I just want to make sure that you've thought this through.

[dangerousangles]

No no I know, but like I said, Christopher's the only one of us that's actually gonna know what's really going on. I don't think I can. Von wouldn't have suggested it if she thought she could handle Chloe on her own, cos Von's very responsible. And I didn't even do a very good job of helping Misha when she was all upset- I ended up yelling at her and making her run to Manchester and she didn't even really do anything wrong. I can't even look at Chloe without getting slightly pissed off, and there's no way I'm gonna be able to talk to Del. Because if she is cheating i'd have no idea what to do about that and if she isn't she's going to be really angry that we'd even think that especially because the source of the info is Jocelin who she hates, a lot.

I guess normally we'd ask Jinx to see what's up with Del but there's something up with him lately too. "I'm not actually here to deal with everyone's problems, okay?" were his exact words

[thegraceoflove]

No, I understand. Sometimes things are too messy to deal with on your own and sometimes you do need to ask for help. And if there's a chance I can save you all the grief of everything getting worse then you know I'll do it.

By the way- don't be too hard on yourself about not being able to fix everything. That's something I do too, which is how I can recognise it in others, I guess. But I'm glad you asked for help, and glad there's something I can do. You're right, that as far as I know it isn't possible to bring back someone who isn't needed, so, let's see how it goes. I suppose you want to do this as soon as possible? I'm free tomorrow.

There's one other thing, do you mind if Charlie sits in? He's an angel too, and he seems to know a lot more about it than I do, and I'd just like him there as a kind of anchor for myself. Last time I bought Christopher back, I wasn't completely sure how I was supposed to get back to the land of the living, and it was scary. Um. I'm fairly sure I can do it on my own, it would just be... comforting,

[dangerousangles]

All good with me that Charlie sits in, specially if it makes you feel better. I don't wanna ask you to do anything that freaks you out, I really don't. I figure Von wants to be there too, since she's been really interested in supernatural stuff and probably even wants to take notes. She'd probly be fascinated to meet him too. Tomorrow's good for me, we gotta decide where... I'll ask Von what she thinks.

And you being hard on yourself because you can't fix things is stupid, because you're always doing everything you can. You don't lose your temper over stupid things.

[thegraceoflove]

Alright, tomorrow, just let me check if Charlie's free and wouldn't mind. Let me know what Von says about location.

Maybe I do do everything I can, but I always feel I could be doing more. And maybe I don't have the same temper as you, but everyone has their vices, and sometimes I wonder if a nice healthy temper would be simpler- no, no that isn't really what I mean, I'm sorry. Listen, your temper is part of you, but it is only a part, and as such, you can control it. Sometimes it's harder than others but never forget that it should answer to you and not the other way round. Whatever happens, you're in charge of you.

[dangerousangles]

Yeaaah. I know, I guess. I did actually manage to talk to Chloe the other day without yelling at her so there's that. I just hate that I yelled at Misha, though, it's so stupid.

But that's over, and never going to happen again, cos no way i"m gonna let myself end up like my parents yelling at each other all the time and ignoring each other the rest.

[thegraceoflove]

That's good to hear, both those things. I don't believe you and Misha will end up like your parents, not so long as you stay as wonderful as you are now. :)

[dangerousangles]

Flatterer-type-woman.

Thanks, Nancy.