OneShot - JaeHo - Wandering in the immense sea of falseness, giving your back at the infinity.
Wandering in the immense sea of falseness, giving your back at the infinity.
Thanks to: honesthours
"He might be gone already,
leaving empty spaces in the apartment,
he might have erased you from his memory, from his life,
but no matter what you will never be able to forget him,
he's your other half after all, you twin soul."
I used the song Paula by Zoé as an inspiration for this fic, you may want to hear it while you are reading it.
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"I'm going to leave you." - That's what he said one day.
And you didn't believe him, because you thought that when you woke up again he would be by your side.
It was wrong of you to think that.
Now you are missing him like you are missing your heart, the one that doesn't beat anymore in your chest, not like it used to and some times you forget to breathe, you don't need to, you don't have a reason anymore.
You are missing his eyes, those black pearls where you could drown in a sea of thoughts, those where you would always get lost, leaving the reality, only to come back with the simple touch of his hand or a kiss in your lips.
Now that you’ve thought it over you realize that it was entirely your fault. You were the one that walked away in the first place, not giving him enough attention, not being how you used to be, not being there for him when he needed you.
You were the one that made that slip.
He might be gone already, leaving empty spaces in the apartment, he might have erased you from his memory, from his life, but no matter what you will never be able to forget him, he's your other half after all, you twin soul.
In your soul, he will always be there, except for his body at your side when you woke up, his sweet smile at the other side of the table while you both were eating.
"Where are you?" - You say absentmindedly, you are alone and nobody can answer that question, no one knows where he is nor would anyone want to tell you.
You can't blame him for wanting to run away from you, for wanting to find something better than you. There are plenty of better catches for him.
Too bad that is not the same for you, he's the only one you want in your life, the only one that you want to be with.
Is cold and you are walking close to the Hang river, walking without any place to go, just wanting to ease your pain that feels overwhelming, and is too much for you to bear.
You can't handle it anymore and keep listening to his voice in your cell phone. It isn't healthy, you know that, but you can't stop being such a masochist.
"I told you that i was going to leave you." - That's the same thing being repeated over and over again.
The freezing cold is making your fingers numb, you can't even feel what your touch anymore and you wish the cold could numb your heart as well, it would be better if you couldn’t feel anything there either.
Suddenly you stop and look at what is under you, the water seems to be black, just like your days without him. They’ve lost their glow and purpose, drifting blindly without direction.
In your cell phone you look for his number under the name of "My love", you are calling him and instead of hearing his sad voice you hear him happy, telling that he's too busy with his boyfriend. You are kind of glad that he hasn't changed the message in his voice-mail.
"Please don't forget me." - Is all you say, and after that you are falling and falling.
You are happy now, the cold is finally making your heart numb, you can almost feel nothing, that feels so much better.
And when the water starts to fill your lungs and you start to lose consciousness, it’s ok.
After all, you don't need to breath anymore.
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Ok, this fic is filled with so many first times, ahaha:
- First time that i write a JaeHo fic. (Actually while i was making it i wasn't thinking in any paring, but i couldn't think in any other since i did't wanted to make such a tragic JaeMin XD, besides, i have to prepared myself to write a happy JaeHo foc for a friend ;) )
- First time i make a dead fic.
- First time i come up with such a long title @_@, but i like it, what do you think?
- First time i use my dongsaeng Mei as a betta reader!! (and she's so good that i might use her again, thanks MeiMei!)
And before any of you start to blame Jae for leaving Yunho is actually Yunho who is abandoning Jae, so uh... now you know who's in the water at the end XD.
Now if you excuse me i'll go to punish myself for making a JaeHo fic (ahahaha!).
Hope you all like it, thought.
Thanks to: honesthours
"He might be gone already,
leaving empty spaces in the apartment,
he might have erased you from his memory, from his life,
but no matter what you will never be able to forget him,
he's your other half after all, you twin soul."
I used the song Paula by Zoé as an inspiration for this fic, you may want to hear it while you are reading it.
____________
"I'm going to leave you." - That's what he said one day.
And you didn't believe him, because you thought that when you woke up again he would be by your side.
It was wrong of you to think that.
Now you are missing him like you are missing your heart, the one that doesn't beat anymore in your chest, not like it used to and some times you forget to breathe, you don't need to, you don't have a reason anymore.
You are missing his eyes, those black pearls where you could drown in a sea of thoughts, those where you would always get lost, leaving the reality, only to come back with the simple touch of his hand or a kiss in your lips.
Now that you’ve thought it over you realize that it was entirely your fault. You were the one that walked away in the first place, not giving him enough attention, not being how you used to be, not being there for him when he needed you.
You were the one that made that slip.
He might be gone already, leaving empty spaces in the apartment, he might have erased you from his memory, from his life, but no matter what you will never be able to forget him, he's your other half after all, you twin soul.
In your soul, he will always be there, except for his body at your side when you woke up, his sweet smile at the other side of the table while you both were eating.
"Where are you?" - You say absentmindedly, you are alone and nobody can answer that question, no one knows where he is nor would anyone want to tell you.
You can't blame him for wanting to run away from you, for wanting to find something better than you. There are plenty of better catches for him.
Too bad that is not the same for you, he's the only one you want in your life, the only one that you want to be with.
Is cold and you are walking close to the Hang river, walking without any place to go, just wanting to ease your pain that feels overwhelming, and is too much for you to bear.
You can't handle it anymore and keep listening to his voice in your cell phone. It isn't healthy, you know that, but you can't stop being such a masochist.
"I told you that i was going to leave you." - That's the same thing being repeated over and over again.
The freezing cold is making your fingers numb, you can't even feel what your touch anymore and you wish the cold could numb your heart as well, it would be better if you couldn’t feel anything there either.
Suddenly you stop and look at what is under you, the water seems to be black, just like your days without him. They’ve lost their glow and purpose, drifting blindly without direction.
In your cell phone you look for his number under the name of "My love", you are calling him and instead of hearing his sad voice you hear him happy, telling that he's too busy with his boyfriend. You are kind of glad that he hasn't changed the message in his voice-mail.
"Please don't forget me." - Is all you say, and after that you are falling and falling.
You are happy now, the cold is finally making your heart numb, you can almost feel nothing, that feels so much better.
And when the water starts to fill your lungs and you start to lose consciousness, it’s ok.
After all, you don't need to breath anymore.
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Ok, this fic is filled with so many first times, ahaha:
- First time that i write a JaeHo fic. (Actually while i was making it i wasn't thinking in any paring, but i couldn't think in any other since i did't wanted to make such a tragic JaeMin XD, besides, i have to prepared myself to write a happy JaeHo foc for a friend ;) )
- First time i make a dead fic.
- First time i come up with such a long title @_@, but i like it, what do you think?
- First time i use my dongsaeng Mei as a betta reader!! (and she's so good that i might use her again, thanks MeiMei!)
And before any of you start to blame Jae for leaving Yunho is actually Yunho who is abandoning Jae, so uh... now you know who's in the water at the end XD.
Now if you excuse me i'll go to punish myself for making a JaeHo fic (ahahaha!).
Hope you all like it, thought.