Oct 30, 2005 04:01
i spent the past hour reading recent entries on livejournal and decided it was time for me to update. so i dusted off the cobwebs which have formed since last year and dug around in my brain for the password.
this weekend could should have gone better. you should have made me happier. i will never understand the need for such a well-crafted facade. you use these skills to woo girls who were already impressed. impressed by your talent, your intelligence, your looks. you form these honey coated comments and you always offer a hug/kiss at the appropriate time. who taught you to be so good? who did you watch date girl after girl... who showed you how to spin your web of lies and kisses to obtain what you desire?
i will never know why you do what you do. only that you do it, and right now i am allowing you to do it to me.
i wish i could tell my heart to stop. i wish i could take it back and never ever hand it to you. unfortunately the pieces have been given, and the bruises are already beginning to show. and i will continue to give you my heart, and you will continue to hurt it. with each well planned word/kiss/hug a new mark will blossom... so go ahead, give me your best shot. bruises fade, tears dry up. memories of holding you and kissing you and thinking that just for a few minutes, i'm all you care about... those will last forever.