the sound that fear makes when it knocks on your front door at 3am

[dangerinnumbers]

you're passed out
sleeping hard
i cant quite get to that point tonight
something is bothering me
something wont get out of my head

i lay there with you and i cant help but think how happy i am
i hear a noise
it pops me up
it sounds like knocking
i pop up but you dont wake up
and that somehow makes it worse

i'm scared
i can honestly say that right now i'm scared out of my mind
and i wish you would wake up
i hope he doesn't come back to my door
i hope i never see his face

i wish i could answer unknown phone calls without being afraid its him
hes like the solitary silence of a facelss crime to me
he haunts my dreams and not in a good way
i dont like having to watch my back when im walking into my house at night
i dont like constantly being afraid
i cant live like this
i cant be afraid anymore.

dammit ray, why wont you wake up
i need you to protect me
wine and cheesecake will get you everytime
if it is him, if that noise was the knocking
i wonder if you'd wake up
i wonder if i could wake you up
that scares me to

if it happened...i wonder if i'd end up ok?
thats scares me the most
what if he came back and i ended up...not okay