wow, first update in 2 years hah
I really really REALLY don't feel like reading for Christology cuz if I do, I think my brain will explode, so I'm updating this after like two years of not updating. You can only imagine how much I hate reading for Christology then haha Anyways, wow tons has happened since my last update. Dated Eric for 2+ yearsish. He broke up with me. Oh well, life goes on. Or at least, that's how I feel at the moment hahaha, if I'd updated this a month or two ago, I would not have felt that way but ah, such is life. Honestly, I don't really know how I feel about it anymore. Like, I dunno. I don't really find myself being depressed that we're not together anymore, and I don't really find myself thinking much about him or us anymore. And even when I do, it doesn't really depress me anymore. I dunno, I guess that's cuz I've realized that in the end, I'm really the one who came out on top; I didn't get the sticky end of the popsicle stick after all. Plus, I've realized that there is so much more out there for me, and so many better people out there that I never knew existed and that I never knew I would come across. I was so convinced that I would never find anyone as good, or anyone who would ever want to be with me... and now I have. And he's shown me that I deserve so much better, and I can find so much better, and basically just that there's more out there than I thought there was. So I don't feel so hopeless anymore. And honestly, even if it doesn't 100% work out the way I want it to with this kid, it's still okay, because he's taught me so much, and he's helped me so much, and he's given me so much more hope in everything. It's weird, this entire breakup experience has really been good for me, I think. I feel like I'm such a better, happier person now. I've learned so much about myself and how to better handle things, and it put so much of my life back into perspective. I like myself a lot better now. I dunno, it's really nice, though, I have to say =]
I'm sure no one cares about my emotional thoughts and baggage, though haha Posting on Livejournal is really more for my own satisfaction than for anyone else. It's more just so that I can have something to look back on years from now and see what was going on in my life and stuff. I'll post more about the boy if anyone wants to know, though, so lemme know haha =]
I'm sure no one cares about my emotional thoughts and baggage, though haha Posting on Livejournal is really more for my own satisfaction than for anyone else. It's more just so that I can have something to look back on years from now and see what was going on in my life and stuff. I'll post more about the boy if anyone wants to know, though, so lemme know haha =]