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I found this in an old book of mine and thought it fit well...
Please Hear What I'm Not Saying...
Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the mask I wear.
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me,
but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only hope and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that cn liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
I don't like to hide.
I don't like to play superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me,
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.
With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
tAliAnguRliE89: then you go having tourney's when i'm in horrible moods
tAliAnguRliE89: bad timing
nhshOrty2121: WELL... THAT IS ALWAYS
nhshOrty2121: SO :-\
tAliAnguRliE89: not always
tAliAnguRliE89: just a lot lately
nhshOrty2121: WHAT IS WITH THE DURING SCHOOL MASK?
tAliAnguRliE89: i try to forget it when i'm around everyone else
if i act like it's not happening in school... i'm able to keep it off my mind for at least a little while
that's what's with the during school mask...
and that only touches on the very tip of what's going on in my head
you may think you know it all...
But No One Does.
don't want to...
Please Hear What I'm Not Saying...
Don't be fooled by me.
Don't be fooled by the mask I wear.
For I wear a mask, a thousand masks,
masks that I'm afraid to take off,
and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me,
but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that I'm secure,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game,
that the water's calm and I'm in command,
and that I need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask,
ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.
But I hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That's why I frantically create a mask to hide behind,
a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend,
to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only hope and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance,
if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that cn liberate me from myself,
from my own self-built prison walls,
from the barriers I so painstakingly erect.
It's the only thing that will assure me
of what I can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth something.
I don't like to hide.
I don't like to play superficial phony games.
I want to stop playing them.
I want to be genuine and spontaneous and me,
but you've got to help me.
You've got to hold out your hand
even when that's the last thing I seem to want.
Only you can wipe away from my eyes
the bland stare of the breathing dead.
Only you can call me into aliveness.
With your power to touch me into feeling
you can breathe life into me.
I want you to know that.
tAliAnguRliE89: then you go having tourney's when i'm in horrible moods
tAliAnguRliE89: bad timing
nhshOrty2121: WELL... THAT IS ALWAYS
nhshOrty2121: SO :-\
tAliAnguRliE89: not always
tAliAnguRliE89: just a lot lately
nhshOrty2121: WHAT IS WITH THE DURING SCHOOL MASK?
tAliAnguRliE89: i try to forget it when i'm around everyone else
if i act like it's not happening in school... i'm able to keep it off my mind for at least a little while
that's what's with the during school mask...
and that only touches on the very tip of what's going on in my head
you may think you know it all...
But No One Does.
don't want to...