friday night
This week I have seen family, watched movies, and eaten lots and lots of fried food, but I have not seen a single old friend. The one person who promised to do something with me didn't. My uncle came to take out ice skating anyone who wanted to go, but I backed out. Mom and Dad went to see a movie, which left me home by my lonesome on a Friday night. I practiced some clarinet in a very angry fashion, playing lots of loud fast things. I still can't play the Rozsa, you know. I put on the metronome and started raising one click at a time, but then I stopped listening to it and just got more and more frustrated. I felt like crying.
The truth is, besides family, I could lose both thumbs and a pinky in a freak boating accident and still be able to count out how many people are important to me in this city. And as for other people in this city who actually consider me important enough to spend time with..well, there's one less than I thought there were.
For years I was ready to end my Old Life and start anew. Now my New Life is all I have. If I just barely scraped by a week here, am I more than un poquito worried about what I'm going to do with myself this summer? Yeah.
Spring Quarter starts in two days. Let's hope I don't fuck anything up.
The truth is, besides family, I could lose both thumbs and a pinky in a freak boating accident and still be able to count out how many people are important to me in this city. And as for other people in this city who actually consider me important enough to spend time with..well, there's one less than I thought there were.
For years I was ready to end my Old Life and start anew. Now my New Life is all I have. If I just barely scraped by a week here, am I more than un poquito worried about what I'm going to do with myself this summer? Yeah.
Spring Quarter starts in two days. Let's hope I don't fuck anything up.