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i got back from new york last night
i cried alot when i left
its so hard for me to leave it
and leave everything i know behind.
When i went there i was expecting everything to be like it always was
but when i got there i had realized how everything had changed
and how i kept thinking 5 months wasnt that long, but i guess it was
it was so weird at first, being there and seeing everyone
the first night i got there i was with bec er n reg n kase
it was nice. i kinda felt awkward though...over the summer
reg and i were together like every single day, and im not even exaggerating.
then i get there and i almost felt uncomfortable around them,
which is so weird because they are my best friends. i dont know i cant
explain it. i stayed at gracies one night, which was so nice
nothing has changed at the valastros, which is good to know.
i love her family so much...i hung out with amanda too a couple times
shes gonna come down for my birthday, im pretty excited for that!
Theres a lot on my mind right now
about a lot of things.
I need to make some decisions...
like should i stop myself from being happy
to make someone else happy?
or should i just let go
and move on?
ah idk weird situation
lots of confusion.
im 15 and i dont want to deal with it.
i cried alot when i left
its so hard for me to leave it
and leave everything i know behind.
When i went there i was expecting everything to be like it always was
but when i got there i had realized how everything had changed
and how i kept thinking 5 months wasnt that long, but i guess it was
it was so weird at first, being there and seeing everyone
the first night i got there i was with bec er n reg n kase
it was nice. i kinda felt awkward though...over the summer
reg and i were together like every single day, and im not even exaggerating.
then i get there and i almost felt uncomfortable around them,
which is so weird because they are my best friends. i dont know i cant
explain it. i stayed at gracies one night, which was so nice
nothing has changed at the valastros, which is good to know.
i love her family so much...i hung out with amanda too a couple times
shes gonna come down for my birthday, im pretty excited for that!
Theres a lot on my mind right now
about a lot of things.
I need to make some decisions...
like should i stop myself from being happy
to make someone else happy?
or should i just let go
and move on?
ah idk weird situation
lots of confusion.
im 15 and i dont want to deal with it.