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I haven't updated in a long time...
the morning i left was well...horrible. Alex came over at like 7:15 and we laid down and watched tv and then at like 8ish we left and the car ride was fun...we laughed alot and talked. when we got to the airport i wanted to turn around so bad and just go home. I cried in his arms while saying goodbye. the day i got here wasnt so bad...my mom was so excited to show me our house and my room. Nothing excited me too much, i started school on the 9. I came home and i cried to my mommy, about how much i hated it here. No matter how much i cry though i know its gonna put me back in New York, i wish it would.
Alex was supposed to come down on the 18 and i just kept thinking about seeing him and it helped me pull through each day..until today. The only flights he found were 600$ so therefore hes not coming. Ive been here for 11 days so far, and it gets harder as the days go by. i guess eventually ill get used to it...as much as i dont want to. i miss him so much, we talk everyday but its still not the same. And i know things will change but i dont want them to.
I hate it here...more then ive ever hated anything in my life. And im helpless. and i wanna go home right now.
i miss my friends SO much. i talk to them all still but i hate not being able to hang out with them or see them everyday. Its hard to not be able to go to ure best friends house and not leave for days...but never get sick of them. I personally have the best friends a girl could ask for all of them are caring,sweet,loving and i know none of them would blink an eye if i needed help or just someone to talk to...and i thank them for that so much.
--i know this is a lot of me complaining but i need it
love you<3
the morning i left was well...horrible. Alex came over at like 7:15 and we laid down and watched tv and then at like 8ish we left and the car ride was fun...we laughed alot and talked. when we got to the airport i wanted to turn around so bad and just go home. I cried in his arms while saying goodbye. the day i got here wasnt so bad...my mom was so excited to show me our house and my room. Nothing excited me too much, i started school on the 9. I came home and i cried to my mommy, about how much i hated it here. No matter how much i cry though i know its gonna put me back in New York, i wish it would.
Alex was supposed to come down on the 18 and i just kept thinking about seeing him and it helped me pull through each day..until today. The only flights he found were 600$ so therefore hes not coming. Ive been here for 11 days so far, and it gets harder as the days go by. i guess eventually ill get used to it...as much as i dont want to. i miss him so much, we talk everyday but its still not the same. And i know things will change but i dont want them to.
I hate it here...more then ive ever hated anything in my life. And im helpless. and i wanna go home right now.
i miss my friends SO much. i talk to them all still but i hate not being able to hang out with them or see them everyday. Its hard to not be able to go to ure best friends house and not leave for days...but never get sick of them. I personally have the best friends a girl could ask for all of them are caring,sweet,loving and i know none of them would blink an eye if i needed help or just someone to talk to...and i thank them for that so much.
--i know this is a lot of me complaining but i need it
love you<3