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i posted this awhile ago...i woke up! i was so frightened that people whould ask me about it that i put it to privet, i thaught i shouldnt talk about the people i love the way i did in this post! NOW i dont care! i know who cares about me and the people i care about me know that i do! (if you have to stop and think if i care about you....I DONT ANYMORE)
good things come to those who wait
well I've been waiting a long time for it !
i always thaught of me and mary like 'will and grace' i guess it just dosent work like on tv!
these song lyrics remind me SO much of me and mary !!! i dont want to explain it to the world (or you mary... i know you dont get it)
"I remember the days when i was so eager to satisfy you
and be less then I was just to prove I could walk beside you
now that you have flown away I see you've chosen to stay behind me
and still I curse the day I decided to not stay true to myself"
Title: I thought I'd just die
Date: 2006-07-25 @ 03:03
Security: private
Music: sash - stay
im so scared !
fuck it ! everyone has left me !!!
noone realy cares anymore ! im so fucking sick of putting on a happy face for everyone i know! who realy cares...? ohhh mary im sure i meen so much 2 u you cant be fucked writting 2 me,its been too long to play the "im lazy" card we were best friends but fuck that u have a boyfriend now so you realy dont need a friend! wow amanda, gaz actualy gave you the time of day. you realy should forget everyone else who has ever cared about you and just care about her! oh and ofcourse take as many drugs as you can!!!! coz that will make you 'cool' justin... this hurts the most coz i guess our friendship is expireing like they all do! u are the only person i know i can ask for help from and u wont judge me or leave me all alone... but tonight you did, i guess u had 2 go 2 bed. (maybe you should learn what a cry for help sounds like). ur slut cunt friends are right! im bad for you !! if i wake up tomorrow i dont think we should see each other anymore! u should be with people who dont drag u down!
i dont like feeling this way! i dont want 2 look at something sharp and just think about sticking in in my skin! i dont like seeing any tablets and wanting 2 take them all! I HAVE TRIED TO GET HELP!!! it realy dosent work for me. i dont know what to do anymore, i feel like i have nothing left and i dont see whats worth all this hurtting
30 down lets see if i have the guts 2 take another 30...? will it take more...?
36...! this might be enough i dont know... we will see !
38!
good things come to those who wait
well I've been waiting a long time for it !
i always thaught of me and mary like 'will and grace' i guess it just dosent work like on tv!
these song lyrics remind me SO much of me and mary !!! i dont want to explain it to the world (or you mary... i know you dont get it)
"I remember the days when i was so eager to satisfy you
and be less then I was just to prove I could walk beside you
now that you have flown away I see you've chosen to stay behind me
and still I curse the day I decided to not stay true to myself"
Title: I thought I'd just die
Date: 2006-07-25 @ 03:03
Security: private
Music: sash - stay
im so scared !
fuck it ! everyone has left me !!!
noone realy cares anymore ! im so fucking sick of putting on a happy face for everyone i know! who realy cares...? ohhh mary im sure i meen so much 2 u you cant be fucked writting 2 me,its been too long to play the "im lazy" card we were best friends but fuck that u have a boyfriend now so you realy dont need a friend! wow amanda, gaz actualy gave you the time of day. you realy should forget everyone else who has ever cared about you and just care about her! oh and ofcourse take as many drugs as you can!!!! coz that will make you 'cool' justin... this hurts the most coz i guess our friendship is expireing like they all do! u are the only person i know i can ask for help from and u wont judge me or leave me all alone... but tonight you did, i guess u had 2 go 2 bed. (maybe you should learn what a cry for help sounds like). ur slut cunt friends are right! im bad for you !! if i wake up tomorrow i dont think we should see each other anymore! u should be with people who dont drag u down!
i dont like feeling this way! i dont want 2 look at something sharp and just think about sticking in in my skin! i dont like seeing any tablets and wanting 2 take them all! I HAVE TRIED TO GET HELP!!! it realy dosent work for me. i dont know what to do anymore, i feel like i have nothing left and i dont see whats worth all this hurtting
30 down lets see if i have the guts 2 take another 30...? will it take more...?
36...! this might be enough i dont know... we will see !
38!