Back to the grass thing…. Ftw.
Yeah so… you know how you can lay next to your partner while they sleep and look up at ceiling and feel like you’re on the other side of the world….. like you talk to them, when you see them in the morning but you don’t really ‘talk’…
So I have not seen Tash in a long time… well I have seen her… its just a few weeks back I had a really bad week, old real estate threatening me with legal action if I did not pay the money owed.. even though I did not owe them the money crystal and jay and the other guy did… and even though I had already personally paid more than half the amount owed even though Tash and Vanilla were on the lease as well, I have now paid more than three quarters myself… I kept them out of court, and then I got done for pissing in public, and I was having a really shit week at work, some guy who I thought I was friends with took a joke badly and was threatening me and shit… the dog pissed in my bed twice, and I had no new sheets because it was raining all week… and the rain makes me really sad so I did not get much sleep, and I got done for no ticket on the train, I really hated myself and my job, and was so lost in the what to do area… it all piled up and I got really withdrawn and depressed for about three weeks, what with the pending court case and everything like that, I told Tash that I would probably be better after the case, and after I cleared the debt to the old realestate, she told me it was all good because she would be getting some of her weekends off because of TAFF, actually now that I think about it she probably wont get them all off because she has to work at some stage as well….. well that’s also shit… but yeah so most of my stuff got sorted out on Thursday, I finished paying my/our debt, I went to court, and I got a door barrier to stop the fucking dog pissing in my room… they decided to have a party on Friday, I was all… ok cool I can’t get one on one with Tash at a party she is hosting it would make ppl feel uncomfortable plus I would be taking there friend away, then fucking her ex boyfriend shows up, the one who apparently dose not hate me, its debatable since I have not seen him since I started going out with Tash…. Lets not get into that, but yeah no one told me, I was cool with it, just I whish one of the three people who had known had had the courtesy to warn me… so I distanced myself even more knowing that I would get so see her that sat or Sunday… then she next morning asks to borrow money so she can fuck off to a medieval fair for the whole weekend with her sister… so I give it to her…. She gets back and goes straight to sleep… then gets up early and goes to TAFF… I get home she’s asleep… then tonight she went to Adams to play board games….. then I come home tonight and freya is all ‘dan you should go to jaspers tomorrow night’ and I’m all ‘I had no intention of going, I wanted to have a quite week with no going out and trying to see Tash a little, why are you trying to get me out of the way?’ she’s all ‘well Tash said she would sleep in my room with me tomorrow night if your not here so you should go see jasper because if you’re here she will want to sleep in your bed’ now before you jump to conclusions these girls are not lesbians, they are close because they have known each other for a long time, and I think Freya is really lonely and would like the company.. but still that was like a massive fuck you… so I smiled and said sure whatever… in my head I said fuck you bitch… but sure whatever… I might see Tash on Thursday or Friday, its unlikely though.. and come the weekend she will either be working or going to her friends 21st…. then we are back into the week.. next weekend after that I go to the coast…… if she complains I’m going to tell her go and fuck herself because in her whole month of TAFF she has not put aside one time to really spend time with me… if it gets to that point without here putting some time away for us to chill and talk I don’t know be close, not necessarily in a sexual way (I don’t really mind) because you can have sex and still not be close to someone I’m going to tell her to go sleep in her own bed….
So I have not seen Tash in a long time… well I have seen her… its just a few weeks back I had a really bad week, old real estate threatening me with legal action if I did not pay the money owed.. even though I did not owe them the money crystal and jay and the other guy did… and even though I had already personally paid more than half the amount owed even though Tash and Vanilla were on the lease as well, I have now paid more than three quarters myself… I kept them out of court, and then I got done for pissing in public, and I was having a really shit week at work, some guy who I thought I was friends with took a joke badly and was threatening me and shit… the dog pissed in my bed twice, and I had no new sheets because it was raining all week… and the rain makes me really sad so I did not get much sleep, and I got done for no ticket on the train, I really hated myself and my job, and was so lost in the what to do area… it all piled up and I got really withdrawn and depressed for about three weeks, what with the pending court case and everything like that, I told Tash that I would probably be better after the case, and after I cleared the debt to the old realestate, she told me it was all good because she would be getting some of her weekends off because of TAFF, actually now that I think about it she probably wont get them all off because she has to work at some stage as well….. well that’s also shit… but yeah so most of my stuff got sorted out on Thursday, I finished paying my/our debt, I went to court, and I got a door barrier to stop the fucking dog pissing in my room… they decided to have a party on Friday, I was all… ok cool I can’t get one on one with Tash at a party she is hosting it would make ppl feel uncomfortable plus I would be taking there friend away, then fucking her ex boyfriend shows up, the one who apparently dose not hate me, its debatable since I have not seen him since I started going out with Tash…. Lets not get into that, but yeah no one told me, I was cool with it, just I whish one of the three people who had known had had the courtesy to warn me… so I distanced myself even more knowing that I would get so see her that sat or Sunday… then she next morning asks to borrow money so she can fuck off to a medieval fair for the whole weekend with her sister… so I give it to her…. She gets back and goes straight to sleep… then gets up early and goes to TAFF… I get home she’s asleep… then tonight she went to Adams to play board games….. then I come home tonight and freya is all ‘dan you should go to jaspers tomorrow night’ and I’m all ‘I had no intention of going, I wanted to have a quite week with no going out and trying to see Tash a little, why are you trying to get me out of the way?’ she’s all ‘well Tash said she would sleep in my room with me tomorrow night if your not here so you should go see jasper because if you’re here she will want to sleep in your bed’ now before you jump to conclusions these girls are not lesbians, they are close because they have known each other for a long time, and I think Freya is really lonely and would like the company.. but still that was like a massive fuck you… so I smiled and said sure whatever… in my head I said fuck you bitch… but sure whatever… I might see Tash on Thursday or Friday, its unlikely though.. and come the weekend she will either be working or going to her friends 21st…. then we are back into the week.. next weekend after that I go to the coast…… if she complains I’m going to tell her go and fuck herself because in her whole month of TAFF she has not put aside one time to really spend time with me… if it gets to that point without here putting some time away for us to chill and talk I don’t know be close, not necessarily in a sexual way (I don’t really mind) because you can have sex and still not be close to someone I’m going to tell her to go sleep in her own bed….