Disaster
God. Last night i had one of the worst argument ever with my mom. We are alone in the house cause dad is abroad for a leisure trip. She started to cry out that she is had enought of me being sick and she's disgusted by what i do (binging and purging) and that ALL the shit i do is to kill her is to hurt her. I said "mom is a disorder, i cannot decide, i'm not chosing to be this way, i am sick, if i could stop i would do right now, but go and read any book about eating disorder, they will tell you it's a disorder, NOT a choice, and that I feel pain being like this, I am not HAPPY binging and purging the whole day in your fucking toilet".
I was really scared because she was running around home like mad, crying and hitting everything, she destroyed things, tables, she made the house a mess and started to call me like I was Satana. I was so fucking scared, i told her Mom do not touch me otherwise I'll call the police. i really thought she was going to kill me. And we were alone at home. Nobody could protect me or call anyone. I decided that the best thing to do would have been leaving her calm down by herself because everything I said was wrong and made her cry more. So i closed my self in my bathroom with the phone and felt asleep there, crying inside like hell. Now it's morning and I don't know what to do because I hear mom downstairs walking like an insane and talking by herself. I don't wanna know if she's totally lose her mind. I don't wanna know.
I was really scared because she was running around home like mad, crying and hitting everything, she destroyed things, tables, she made the house a mess and started to call me like I was Satana. I was so fucking scared, i told her Mom do not touch me otherwise I'll call the police. i really thought she was going to kill me. And we were alone at home. Nobody could protect me or call anyone. I decided that the best thing to do would have been leaving her calm down by herself because everything I said was wrong and made her cry more. So i closed my self in my bathroom with the phone and felt asleep there, crying inside like hell. Now it's morning and I don't know what to do because I hear mom downstairs walking like an insane and talking by herself. I don't wanna know if she's totally lose her mind. I don't wanna know.