Back to school.
I don't want school to start. I just wish I could fast-forward through this whole school year. It's going to kill me, I can already sense it. No matter how hard I try, I'll still hate everyone surrounding me, and I still won't be motivated enough to get those straight A's I haven't seen since the beginning of seventh grade. I know I'm going to have a mental breakdown from being overwhelmed by everything. It's going to happen.
I'm REALLY trying to keep positive, even though I'm wicked pessimistic about everything. I have a feeling that if I somehow pull a lead in the fall play, it will keep me motivated enough to do well. I might, I just might. Cats has really helped me with everything. My confidence on stage has most definately improved, I'm much more comfortable singing, I'm back in shape enough to dance, and I most definately keep my energy level way up even if the rest of the cast seems to be droopy. I'm feeling confident. I can do it. Maybe.
I should have tried out for vocal ensemble. I'm SO DUMB. I chickened out and told myself "No, you won't get in, there's too many sopranos." And then when Boyle needed tenors, I was too afraid to ask her if I could auditon. I dunno. Chorus will be okay I guess.
I hope Economics doesn't suck. If it does, I'll switch into walking or something stupid like that. I don't have a lot of time to do millions of assignments. I had Calouro before, and almost every night we had (at least) a five page packet for homework. I most definately don't have time for that.
See, this is what my week will look like.
Monday: Work.
Tuesday: Flag Practice.
Wednesday: Maybe work, maybe not.
Thursday: Flag Practice.
Friday: Dance Class.
Saturday: Work.
Sunday: Day off.
Not to mention rehersals on top of that during Oct-Nov & Feb-May.
I pretty much know what I want to do for college. I picked three places I'm going to apply to: My crazy "yeah right maybe" college, the college I really like that I'll probably get into, and then the safety school. "Yeah right maybe" is Brown. I mean, the people there may be "stuck up", but they have a gorgeous campus close to home, and an awesome theatre program. The students in the advanced acting classes get to audition for shows at Trinity Rep, and that would be AMAZING. The college I want to go to that I'll probably get into is Hartford. It's small, it has a gorgeous campus, great arts and education programs, and it's not far from home. And well, my safety school is RIC, because I can transfer out of there once I get myself together.
I'm going to do "early descision" or whatever it's called. I just want to know where I'm going so that I'm not so stressed out about it.
I think I'll survive.
I'm REALLY trying to keep positive, even though I'm wicked pessimistic about everything. I have a feeling that if I somehow pull a lead in the fall play, it will keep me motivated enough to do well. I might, I just might. Cats has really helped me with everything. My confidence on stage has most definately improved, I'm much more comfortable singing, I'm back in shape enough to dance, and I most definately keep my energy level way up even if the rest of the cast seems to be droopy. I'm feeling confident. I can do it. Maybe.
I should have tried out for vocal ensemble. I'm SO DUMB. I chickened out and told myself "No, you won't get in, there's too many sopranos." And then when Boyle needed tenors, I was too afraid to ask her if I could auditon. I dunno. Chorus will be okay I guess.
I hope Economics doesn't suck. If it does, I'll switch into walking or something stupid like that. I don't have a lot of time to do millions of assignments. I had Calouro before, and almost every night we had (at least) a five page packet for homework. I most definately don't have time for that.
See, this is what my week will look like.
Monday: Work.
Tuesday: Flag Practice.
Wednesday: Maybe work, maybe not.
Thursday: Flag Practice.
Friday: Dance Class.
Saturday: Work.
Sunday: Day off.
Not to mention rehersals on top of that during Oct-Nov & Feb-May.
I pretty much know what I want to do for college. I picked three places I'm going to apply to: My crazy "yeah right maybe" college, the college I really like that I'll probably get into, and then the safety school. "Yeah right maybe" is Brown. I mean, the people there may be "stuck up", but they have a gorgeous campus close to home, and an awesome theatre program. The students in the advanced acting classes get to audition for shows at Trinity Rep, and that would be AMAZING. The college I want to go to that I'll probably get into is Hartford. It's small, it has a gorgeous campus, great arts and education programs, and it's not far from home. And well, my safety school is RIC, because I can transfer out of there once I get myself together.
I'm going to do "early descision" or whatever it's called. I just want to know where I'm going so that I'm not so stressed out about it.
I think I'll survive.