Kissing 2007 goodbye...
Christmas break has been fun! The fam went to St. Augustine, which is a boring place, but the beaches are really nice! My grandma is a little strange. I guess when you live by yourself for a long time, your social skills get a little funky. That's what happened to her I think! She says highly debatable things. But, my family in general is a little crazy, and we have many fun adventures!
So, today I was going to hang out with Nick, Keith, Lauren, and maybe Raj and Haley, but it ended up being just Nick and me. Which is really weird. We had fun and all, but I wish it had been a group. It's nice to catch up though. Ashley, if you read this: don't worry, we didn't dance at Publix this time :)
I can't believe tomorrow is 2008!!!!!! I had a flash back of my 7th grade float building party (when I had a HUGE crush on Richard Parry!) when we came up with our oh-so-corny slogan "Super Great '08". It was so far away then! So much has happened to me this year: things I loved, things I hated, regrets, triumphs, friends coming and going, disappointments, and many many MANY lessons learned. And next year is a huge year for me! Europe, graduation, my first semester at UCF and whatever that will bring me. I'm so excited! I'm ready and not ready at the same time. You see, I feel ready to be out for high school and all its retardation and drama, but I don't know if I'm spiritually ready to be off to a public college with all the freedom. It'll be a good test for me. I hope I don't fail!
I don't really like new years resolutions, but I have made a few goals for myself...
1. Build the friendships I have now. That's really hard for me.
2. Fulfill some fine arts prefect duties. We've got awesome plans for this year!
3. Persue and build relationships in college. Aka don't be a hermit.
4. No dating in 2008. This is really easy for me right now, but I think it will get harder once I go and meet tons of wonderful young men at UCF! But I think this is what's best for me. At least for this year :)
5. I haven't decided what 5 is yet. But there should be 5 because it's a good number.
So anyways, I'm celebrating New Years Eve tonight at the movies with my mama! We're going to see Atonement, which looks SO GOOOOOD!!!!!! I'm glad I'm celebrating the end of the year with someone who has been here for me for many consecutive years! Ok, I know it's my mom and that seems like it's kinda her job, but it means a lot to me. I don't have many friends like that, and not everyone's mom is there for them like my mom has been, so I really appreciate her.
Amy
"It's New Years Eve and I'm full of empty promises,
I half pretend to keep this time, just like last year.
The band is loud and I'm wandering the shadows,
wishing I was never here. I persevere.
A crowded room, these whitewashed tombs,
they raise their glasses high, they kiss the past goodbye.
This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe,
this New Years Eve, will turn out better than before,
I'm holding on, still holding out, until they close the door... on me.
It's New Years Eve and I feel my insecurities,
are haunting me like ghosts, this sinking quicksand.
And then with thunderous praise and lofty adoration,
a second passes by, yet nothing changes.
I hate my skin, this grave I'm standing in.
Another change of years, and I wish I wasn't here.
A year goes by and I'm staring at my watch again,
and I dig deep this time, for something greater than I've ever been,
life to ancient wineskins. And I was blind but now I see.
This New Years Eve, something must change me inside,
I'm crooked and misguided, and tired of being tired.
This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe, in You."
-Five Iron Frenzy
Gooooooood song.
So, today I was going to hang out with Nick, Keith, Lauren, and maybe Raj and Haley, but it ended up being just Nick and me. Which is really weird. We had fun and all, but I wish it had been a group. It's nice to catch up though. Ashley, if you read this: don't worry, we didn't dance at Publix this time :)
I can't believe tomorrow is 2008!!!!!! I had a flash back of my 7th grade float building party (when I had a HUGE crush on Richard Parry!) when we came up with our oh-so-corny slogan "Super Great '08". It was so far away then! So much has happened to me this year: things I loved, things I hated, regrets, triumphs, friends coming and going, disappointments, and many many MANY lessons learned. And next year is a huge year for me! Europe, graduation, my first semester at UCF and whatever that will bring me. I'm so excited! I'm ready and not ready at the same time. You see, I feel ready to be out for high school and all its retardation and drama, but I don't know if I'm spiritually ready to be off to a public college with all the freedom. It'll be a good test for me. I hope I don't fail!
I don't really like new years resolutions, but I have made a few goals for myself...
1. Build the friendships I have now. That's really hard for me.
2. Fulfill some fine arts prefect duties. We've got awesome plans for this year!
3. Persue and build relationships in college. Aka don't be a hermit.
4. No dating in 2008. This is really easy for me right now, but I think it will get harder once I go and meet tons of wonderful young men at UCF! But I think this is what's best for me. At least for this year :)
5. I haven't decided what 5 is yet. But there should be 5 because it's a good number.
So anyways, I'm celebrating New Years Eve tonight at the movies with my mama! We're going to see Atonement, which looks SO GOOOOOD!!!!!! I'm glad I'm celebrating the end of the year with someone who has been here for me for many consecutive years! Ok, I know it's my mom and that seems like it's kinda her job, but it means a lot to me. I don't have many friends like that, and not everyone's mom is there for them like my mom has been, so I really appreciate her.
Amy
"It's New Years Eve and I'm full of empty promises,
I half pretend to keep this time, just like last year.
The band is loud and I'm wandering the shadows,
wishing I was never here. I persevere.
A crowded room, these whitewashed tombs,
they raise their glasses high, they kiss the past goodbye.
This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe,
this New Years Eve, will turn out better than before,
I'm holding on, still holding out, until they close the door... on me.
It's New Years Eve and I feel my insecurities,
are haunting me like ghosts, this sinking quicksand.
And then with thunderous praise and lofty adoration,
a second passes by, yet nothing changes.
I hate my skin, this grave I'm standing in.
Another change of years, and I wish I wasn't here.
A year goes by and I'm staring at my watch again,
and I dig deep this time, for something greater than I've ever been,
life to ancient wineskins. And I was blind but now I see.
This New Years Eve, something must change me inside,
I'm crooked and misguided, and tired of being tired.
This New Years Eve, I'm waiting for tomorrow.
My heart is on my sleeve, and yes I still believe, in You."
-Five Iron Frenzy
Gooooooood song.