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Went to the beach today. I miss Maine water, swimming in bath like water is not favorable on a 109 degree day. There were fish in the waters... I hate fishy waters, they alarm me. We saw some surfers, but being the cowards we are they were gazed at. I got a WINK! They showed off for us, it worked out sometimes. They took some rough falls...
Tomorrow we are going to Ft. Walton.. From what we gathered from her mother (which wasn't much) It's got water slides and rides, stores and beach. I love palm tree's, I think I'll bring one home with me... I like it down here and would be inclined to stay longer if it wasn't a constant 90 degress, with an equally hot, moist breeeze.
I feel like dancing, and I want to see Austin Powers. Speaking of things I miss. I miss my Becca, Hanna, Nad, and Sturb... I don't want to get back on the planes I am still afraid of them althoguh I faired just fine. I don't plan on flying much in my adult life or any other time unless it's important.
I'm having fun, but as we all know I am a serious home body. It's not like I miss my mom, I miss my house I miss my friends and I miss my bed. I haven't been home for more than 2 days in a row all summer.. By home I mean in my bed. I'll regret coming home when school starts. I feel myself missing her already, it's rough considering my other best friends are 3 males. Well I have 4 close girlfriends, but they aren't really around as much... I know, yea, I can tell them anything(the men) but there are things I would rather not discuss with them and things I'm sure they will never want to hear about.. Case in point love life.. not something I am willing to discuss something they are not willing to converse with me about. And being in a somewhat complicated relationship with one of them I don't think I can go to him for advice on the relationship. I think I'm tired once again I'm half rambling half not making sense, i'm incoherant now a days. I wish I could sleep for a few days straight, I think I will when I get home. I need to go school shopping.. I like clothes, hate shopping with my mom.
I'm going to tmiss Moose, I'm going to miss Micah too much. Sometimes I just wish things hadn't worked out the way they did. You should marry for love, not because it's the nect logical thing to do, and if you don't marry for love don't bring children into it. I have never forgiven her for what she did to Nick and Moose and it bothers me today... I am requesting a new personality
I'm sleepy, I don't know if it's the heat or the jetlag that always makes me think about how things should have been different, how much happier they all deserved to be. I sometimes wonder why God would make people suffer the way he has, if he's all powerful why not spare the people. They didn't do anything why punish children for the mistakes of their parents... Well when I get to heaven or whatever is there I will ask him. And that's another thing, last night Katie and I were discussing one of my bestfriends and his mental status. Which is now back at normal, but he fucked himself all up thinking about what if there is no heaven and when you die youre dead forever, eternal blackness. Therapy was given and he's somewhat come to grips with it, he has a renewed faith, and tries not to think about that.. But I know that I myself along with a good number of my friends have pondered the same questions and scared themselves, it's easier to have faith than to think that there might not be anything after this. Don't spend your life thinking about how to save yourself but live it, you only have so many good years. Do what you want, have fun and never withhold information because you don't want to get yourself hurt. If you love someone tell them, it's always worth telling them even if they don't return the emotion.
I wish I could take my own advice
Tomorrow we are going to Ft. Walton.. From what we gathered from her mother (which wasn't much) It's got water slides and rides, stores and beach. I love palm tree's, I think I'll bring one home with me... I like it down here and would be inclined to stay longer if it wasn't a constant 90 degress, with an equally hot, moist breeeze.
I feel like dancing, and I want to see Austin Powers. Speaking of things I miss. I miss my Becca, Hanna, Nad, and Sturb... I don't want to get back on the planes I am still afraid of them althoguh I faired just fine. I don't plan on flying much in my adult life or any other time unless it's important.
I'm having fun, but as we all know I am a serious home body. It's not like I miss my mom, I miss my house I miss my friends and I miss my bed. I haven't been home for more than 2 days in a row all summer.. By home I mean in my bed. I'll regret coming home when school starts. I feel myself missing her already, it's rough considering my other best friends are 3 males. Well I have 4 close girlfriends, but they aren't really around as much... I know, yea, I can tell them anything(the men) but there are things I would rather not discuss with them and things I'm sure they will never want to hear about.. Case in point love life.. not something I am willing to discuss something they are not willing to converse with me about. And being in a somewhat complicated relationship with one of them I don't think I can go to him for advice on the relationship. I think I'm tired once again I'm half rambling half not making sense, i'm incoherant now a days. I wish I could sleep for a few days straight, I think I will when I get home. I need to go school shopping.. I like clothes, hate shopping with my mom.
I'm going to tmiss Moose, I'm going to miss Micah too much. Sometimes I just wish things hadn't worked out the way they did. You should marry for love, not because it's the nect logical thing to do, and if you don't marry for love don't bring children into it. I have never forgiven her for what she did to Nick and Moose and it bothers me today... I am requesting a new personality
I'm sleepy, I don't know if it's the heat or the jetlag that always makes me think about how things should have been different, how much happier they all deserved to be. I sometimes wonder why God would make people suffer the way he has, if he's all powerful why not spare the people. They didn't do anything why punish children for the mistakes of their parents... Well when I get to heaven or whatever is there I will ask him. And that's another thing, last night Katie and I were discussing one of my bestfriends and his mental status. Which is now back at normal, but he fucked himself all up thinking about what if there is no heaven and when you die youre dead forever, eternal blackness. Therapy was given and he's somewhat come to grips with it, he has a renewed faith, and tries not to think about that.. But I know that I myself along with a good number of my friends have pondered the same questions and scared themselves, it's easier to have faith than to think that there might not be anything after this. Don't spend your life thinking about how to save yourself but live it, you only have so many good years. Do what you want, have fun and never withhold information because you don't want to get yourself hurt. If you love someone tell them, it's always worth telling them even if they don't return the emotion.
I wish I could take my own advice